Any bi polar sufferers?

[NotUmbongoUnchained]

Something is happening to me atm and I’m not sure what to do.
I’m absolutely a ball of rage and I can’t seem to ease it. I’ve just walked out of the house and I’m sitting in the car. I’m posting in here to distract myself and I’m just pissing everyone off.
I’ve not experienced this before.

Best thing I ever did was open up to my partner. However this came after a huge public breakdown and suicide attempt, where I finally ‘came out’ to my mum and my partner. It was messy and I didn’t do it properly, but I wish I’d done it sooner because my mum helped me with debt and my partner spent hours researching it to try to understand and help.. coming from a man who barely even reads the headlines of a newspaper. He might surprise you.

One person I literally couldn’t live without is my support worker. She’s literally amazing. Please do think about getting that support because it’s absolutely changed my life. I know your mh team sucks and mine isn’t amazing either.

Where are you? Is there any sort of community help for mh problems? I now work for the police in a team where we support people with mh problems on a peer sort of basis and as a gov agency we can push for things to happen quickly. I’m in the north, is there anything like this available?

Good idea re going home, OP.

Thank you all for your help last night. I’ve spent the day in bed and have taken my medication.

I hope you're feeling a bit better, OP. Did you speak to your husband?

Had you not been taking your medication?

No I hadn’t been taking it. He’s been great, as always. He’s insisting I take some time off work to stay home and try and keep my head straight. He’s probably right.

Please think about how much you're hurting your partner when you come off medication suddenly and then storm out and don't respond to texts or calls when you're struggling. If you ever expressed suicidal thoughts your partner will be worried sick. You don't get to manage bipolar in your own way AND stay married. It doesn't happen. It has to be a team approach. Every time a person relapses we always ask, have you been taking your medication? If you want to come off it, do it under supervision in consultation with your partner.

I'm a doctor. I promise we care!

I'm glad to hear you're safe, and taking your meds again

I’m pregnant. That’s what the issues have been. I don’t actually know what to do!