Hello.
I've been married for 15 years and things are normally ok with my husband but he gets angry at things and about three years ago, he shoved me to the ground. He's not physically harmed me since although he's risen his fist to me twice.
Recently I've begun to feel that the abuse is becoming more emotional but I can't stop doubting myself. I know I should've left years ago.
Last night we were getting intimate (ish) though we were both fully clothed. He told me to take my trousers off but I didn't want to because our children were downstairs and it felt wrong. They could've come up at any second! but when I said 'no', he pestered me before walked out the room slamming the door behind him. He came back 10 minutes later and said that I was a 'fucking disappointment' and that he 'never asks for much'. He was so angry at me and kept saying how he's always patient with me. He ignored me for a good couple of hours until I was so upset that I felt I had to apologise.
My words were almost sarcastic- 'I'm sorry I didn't take my trousers off when you asked. I'll try to do better next time' and he thanked me for the apology and said that although he was disappointed, he'd give me another chance for the sake of keeping the family together
I'm not imagining this am I? I've been so stupid