NC as DH knows my user name!
So been with DH 15 years. Had our first child very quickly (unplanned) and quite young. 8 years later, we were settled had jobs and a home, and tryed for our second DD. And decided to try for another when second DD was 1. And then fell pregnant with our 4th while I had the implant fitted. We havnt had it easy with ttc and had our share of heartbreak. So number 4 although unplanned and very soon after our 3rd, was a little miracle for us.
So we have not long moved into a better sized home. Could do with an extra room but it's comfortable to live in. DH got a better job and I am now a stay at home parent. We are slightly better off doing it this way, as we don't need to pay for child care. But money is still a little tight.
Now DH has started asking if we could try for DC5. He has been mentioning it for a few months. But apparently thinking about it for nearly a year. Now he just won't stop. He loves being a dad. He has always wanted a big family. He doesn't see any problem. In his mind, he provides for us, we have a home, and we are good parents that love our kids, so what's stopping us!
In my mind, I feel like as much as I love being a mum and love my kids, I have been a mum from very young, for the last 15 years, my youngest is 2 So still have a long way to go before they fly the nest. I also want to do something else with my life, I would love to finish my training. Also we have just got a house that fits our family, where would we fit another child in? And as i said money is tight. And affording another would be a push. But secretly at the same time as thinking all of this, I would love another.
I feel so bad for shutting DH down. I can see how much he wants this. I havnt told him that I would have another baby in heartbeat, if circumstances were different as I don't want to give him any hope. I have told him my reasons why not, but he still keeps asking me to think about it.
So AIBU to say no!