To feel angry towards my partner who has decided no more children?!

[Mamabear1986]

We have 3 little boys and sadly our 4th son was still born in May.
My partner initially agreed to trying for another baby as soon as we got the go ahead. Now, after a stressful day with my eldest he has said he definitely doesn't want anymore. He has said how lucky we are to have the children we already have, which I understand but it doesn't stop the feeling that I want 1 more.
Now, today after asking me why I was in a mood, he said that he might want another in the future, just not now.
I hate how he is playing with my emotions. We have been through a very difficult time with losing our son and now he is adding to the turmoil by chopping and changing his mind.
If he said no more kids right from the start then I wouldn't be feeling so angry but the fact that he said yes, then no, yes, then no is driving me crazy!

Yes, although don't have the same username. I'm in an almost identical situation to you, OP, and the desire for another is completely primal.

I’m so sorry for your loss op .

I also think that maybe you and your partner need some time to grieve before discussing this again. Your dp may not mean what he says about no more dcs. Then again he might. I think you need to focus on yourselves just now as it must be an unimaginably difficult time for you both.

I'm so sorry for you and your partners loss OP. For what's it worth I agree with most other posters that I don't think he's deliberately playing with your emotions, I suspect he just feels lost and all over the place right now, and probably doesn't really know what he wants. The loss for both of you is still going to be very raw, and I think you both need to just take a few months to grieve and process things before discussing about whether another baby is right for you as a family.

@Sadmummy if your name is similar, I think I have spoken to you on sands.

I appreciate everyone's responses. I am going to try and not think about it at the moment as see where we are a few months down the line.