Not really an aibu but posting for traffic. In the last few weeks I've been suffering badly from 'the shakes'. My hands mostly (so bad I sometimes can't manage to roll a cigarette or drink a cup of coffee without it going everywhere) but also the rest of my body; knees knocking and torso shaking.
Then twice in the last week or so I've been walking and my right leg/foot starts to feel 'dead' - like it's fallen asleep iyswim. It gets steadily worse to the point where I'm scared to cross a road in case it gives up and I fall. I managed to sit down when it happened this morning but it still doesn't feel right- it's a bit numb but I can walk normally.
I have a pretty unhealthy lifestyle atm. My depression has worsened and I'm not eating properly. Alcohol reduces the shakes but it's not a long term solution. It's just so embarrassing. I ordered breakfast in a cafe this morning and struggled to cut up the food and bring the fork to my mouth, so ended up eating with my hands and leaving most of it.
Google is scaring me. Could be Parkinson's... MS (Which my nan had). It really is debilitating and embarrassing. I'm only 30 ffs.