I’ve posted in relationships about this, but also posting here for traffic.
I am a sahm. This wasn’t really by choice as I was made redundant while on maternity leave with dc1 and now can’t find a job.
I have a decent degree, but also a strange career history due to following dh’s job about the place and now a 3 year gap. Employers don’t seem especially interested and I can’t blame them. I’ve only ever worked as an admin / office support, so no particularly impressive or unusual skills.
Anyway, I am so unhappy and I’m concerned it is starting to effect our two children. I haven’t got anyone to talk to about it, except my husband, who is very busy with work and equally busy when at home as we have two very young dcs, including a 4mo.
I’m just feeling very lonely, as I have no family support, no ‘proper’ friends and no job. Dh’s family aren’t in touch very much and there is some favouritism towards his sibling and the gc on that side, which is a little hurtful.
I am so miserable and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m struggling not to show it too much in front of dcs, but it’s difficult. I hate being like this and I really fucking hate the really fucking stupid choices I’ve made which have led me here.
Has anyone else had this and just got over it?
My last thread was about me wanting to move to one of my home countries as I thought I’d be happier there. DH doesn’t want to and maybe it’s too drastic anyway. One or both of us would need to find jobs there too, but since DH isn’t interested then he obviously isn’t looking. I can look, but then DH wouldn’t come with me even if I, by some miracle, got a great job. So it’s a no go.