To ask what you wouldn’t want others to find

[JaceLancs]

Been clearing the house of a relative who died suddenly n found lots of strange things - some fetish stuff but others just random oddness eg noting in diaries the anniversary of age of an electrical appliance ‘fridge freezer 19 today........’
Making me wonder what I wouldn’t want someone else to find.......
In my case diaries from my angst ridden teens
What about you?

I don't have anything at all. However, my grandma has instructed me that when she dies I must get her diaries. She writes everything down, and has done for many years, and has apparently been less than complimentary about some of our family members. She trusts me not to read them (I wouldn't) and just destroy them (which I would), but if my mum, uncle or sister gets hold of them there is likely to be a big family bust up! She keeps them in a box with my name on, but I'm a six hour drive away, so I'm not sure I'll get there in time to stop other people poking their noses in. I have asked why she won't destroy them now, but I think the thought that they could be found gives her a bit of a thrill!

She should post the completed ones to you...unless she likes rereading them.

My diaries from when I was severely mentally ill (rapid cycling bipolar from suicidal ideation to mania with psychosis) Lots of awful details in there.

I keep them as a reminder of how far I’ve come and how ill I would get if I didn’t cooperate with my treatment.

It’s been 10 years now and although I’m still not well, I haven’t slipped back into hallucinating/attempting suicide/etc.

@poppyinbloom I'm so sorry you lost your fiancé and that their family behaved like that.

I want to say something about keeping strong and moving on and you can do it, but I don't want it to sound patronising. Just more

Thank you, Rula. It has been a nightmare to be honest. I've been feeling all this guilt (posted about it another thread) because of things I wrote in our private conversations. I'm starting to think maybe I shouldn't though. Just still can't believe he is gone or that people would do this.

FWIW it's my opinion that you should feel absolutely no guilt for anything written in private conversations, and that they are utterly awful for reading anything like that, and that now that is their problem.

I hope you can find peace, leave them behind and get back to feeling good about life.

The vast array of crap that’s fallen behind my bed, that I can’t be bothered to retrieve.

I literally can't think of anything.

Right, that's it. Monday, I'm buying a giant collection of dildos. We can't have this.