I need to find a way through the following challenges:
My DS has severe disabilities both physically and learning-related (have posted elsewhere on this)….I find it a struggle to deal with this and the practical problems that ensue from it, & reconcile these with the rest of my life.
I have been trying to get my professional career off the ground….invested substantial money and time & ultimately got the highest level of qualification in my field. But I don't really feel this has paid off as all I have been able to find is a series of fixed term contracts in relatively junior roles.
I would like to get a satisfactory career & am trying to find something else but all I get is a series of rejections for every role I apply for.
I find it hard to find the headspace for everything I am trying to do, as the enormity of it all makes it hard to think straight. I feel myself getting bitter and negative and anticipating rejection, I know that feeling this way is making things worse but I don't know how to stop that thought pattern when everything seems to be shoving me into it.
Sometimes I feel like just giving up although I NEVER will….but nothing seems to go my way, I feel that I do everything I can think of doing & just get negativity and rejection in return.
I just want to understand (or find someone to help me understand) what I am doing wrong and how to turn this negative pattern around.