This may be long, I've name changed as I've spoken about some of this before, but just want unbiased views and I'm driving myself mad.
Quick rundown.
Met DH in 2008, fell pregnant 9 months into relationship. My little boy was born sleeping, when I was taken into hospital to have him, DH was using that time messaging another woman quite intimately rather than come to hospital. I did it all on my own, then arranged and attended his funeral alone.
Next had my son, DH left me in hospital once I'd had an emergency section, to go home and message this same person.
I didn't know at the time of these incidents that he was messaging this woman, this all came about when my DS was 1.
There has been a lot more things happened, being awful to me whilst drunk, letting his family be awful to me, turning his phone off and heading into strip clubs.
But this morning something else has come to light, my best and closest friend said she had something to tell me, she played me a recorded phone call, where DH stated he was at work, and he'd taken her number from my phone, then told her I'd said she fancied him. And he was laughing, the way he said it, it was like he wanted her to say she did fancy him. It was awful to listen too.
She didn't tell me until now, as she didn't want to hurt me, but once I opened up about how I was feeling about him, she decided to play the recording. Now all this happened 6 years ago.
But I feel this is the last straw, and if I'd have known what he did with the phone call, I'd never have carried on with the relationship. AIBU? Or am I being pathetic and should get over it?
My head is a mess, I don't have any family, it's just me and the kids, he comes home at the weekend, and he's awful to be around, I've just had enough now, but I can't throw it all Away for something silly can I? Or is that all in my head and it's not something silly?
I'm so sorry this is so jumbled, I'm crying as I'm writing this.