Stillscreaming. I do appreciate that many things have changed and take on offence at the comment on age. Do not feel it, but I do know it. I guess the experience of being trans prepares you a little for being one age in your mind and another in your body. :)
When I saw all this stuff starting up on Digital Spy 2 - 3 years ago it rather caught me on the hop as I had not thought about or discussed with anyone trans matters for years. It just long since stopped being a day to day part of my life.
But I found a sensible trans discussion forum - I had never looked for one before as I had no need. Here I quietly educated myself about how trans people were seeing things today and why there appeared to be such a big battleground developing. So I gradually appreciated some of the many differences between then and now.
It was only fair to get this perspective before commenting openly on Digital Spy because I knew once I outed myself as trans there after posting for years without that ever being mentioned they would expect me to know things about it that, of course, I do not.
I can only ever explain what I saw and experienced and offer my views. So I needed to try to understand why things seem so different to a new generation.
Consequently - yes - I accept that it is not as simple as in the past everything was perfect and today it is not. There are good and bad points about both eras.
As for the 1950s view of a woman foisted onto you by Charing Cross I have heard that said before. But I am not entirely sure I experienced it.
Yes, Dr John Randall, the psychiatrist in charge there was a kind of gatekeeper. Perhaps I was unusual for 1974 when I first went to Charing Cross because I had already had extensive testing and had already transitioned full time before I first met Randall.
He was a bit of an old fashioned sexist and had an odd brusque manner. Anyone who wants to see need just go on You Tube and search for 'A Change of Sex' - a BBC TV documentary (the first ever I think) made in 1979. It is on there.
The trans woman Julia Grant was turned away from Charing Cross as I recall and there are scenes of her meeting Randall. You do not actually see him. You just hear him being rather demeaning to her. And I know a lot of people watch that and think he was wicked.
I don't. He was an old fashioned educated man and was very much of the opinion of many on this forum. He thought this was an illness, probably mental, but not exactly what. He was adamant that you were a man and always would be. And that you were likely facing a life of torment and missed opportunity in the world of men. He particularly hated it if he thought you were intelligent as many of his patients were from those I met in those years. Several were at university. But he genuinely believed that this was the only real hope of a normal life in the cases that had got that far.
He had an old fashioned way of viewing femininity, absolutely. He would comment on and criticise your appearance or compliment it. For him it was almost all about passing. And I got the impression he had to be sure you would not stand out because that was the only way transition would be a success in a universe where any rights for trans people was miles off the agenda.
In fact Randall had been the one that put them off. He was happy to brag to me about his time in court in which he had helped get some lord or other (Rowallan I think) a divorce on the grounds his 'wife' was really a man. So he actually stopped me from getting married to my partner as his court testimony out it off for another 30 years.
But that was just him. I also had many happy chats with him, especially after the first few when he got to know you and had I guess made up his mind. Often I would go all that way and spend 20 minutes not mentioning trans matters and chatting about his roses (he was a big fan) or his Christian beliefs, as he knew of my family background in the church and he once said I was the first trans person he had met who was the product of a Sunday School education. Though I have no idea if he meant that good or bad.
Then he would ramble off into some tale which I would never figure out of it was true or legend in which he explained how he 'knew' from his medical involvement that a very famous person connected to the royal family was what we would now call trans but nobody would ever find out. He told me who it was, of course, but I am not saying as I have no idea how true this tale was.
All that said, never once did he advise me on what to wear or how to behave and those 'do better' or 'nice lipstick' comments aside I was not put under any pressure to be anything other than myself. I certainly did not only wear dresses as in the 70s there were some nice pant suits and photos from the day show I never felt obliged to wear one thing or another.
So, yes, to a degree I get where you are coming from. Pretty much everyone involved in trans matters then - doctors, psychiatrists, surgeons were men. And I felt a little awkward being examined by them intimately often - one reason I can entirely see the reason for protection against some safe spaces in the GRA.
But there was no alternative then - unlike today where there is more of a balance and you are not being judged as part of a beauty parade.
I certainly don't have great physical attributes in terms of ease of passing. I know that but it never stopped me appearing in public a lot and I can only assume that self confidence in being yourself is the key to transition given how little hassle I ever got compared with today where there seem many expressions of that sort of thing from transitioners. Being young helped a lot, of course. But I was never put under any pressure to have enhancements of any kind or to look like any of the model like trans girls on his wall.
We all had our photo taken first meeting and then again on last one years later and when your picture appeared on his wall you knew you were about to be passed over to the surgeon for GRS.