Abit of back story or else this won't make sense.
My best friend and I have been best friends since we were 4, we are now 29. We fell out 5 years ago really badly because she moved away to France.
All was good for the first year, we kept in contact via emailing. She then wanted me to visit her, twice a year or so. My DH and I have never had a lot of money, we have minimum wage jobs and always holiday in this country. When I worked out how much it would cost me, with parking at the airport, flight cost, taxi the other end and money to spend whilst I was out there the cost was getting on for £250 which we just couldn't afford at the time and I explained this to her.
The year we fell out was when my mum and dad paid for flights to Spain for me and my DH to have one of those Sun Holidays, so the accommodation was like £40 for a week just so we could go abroad one year. My friend hit the roof when she found out and said I was selfish for not visiting her when we said we couldn't afford it. We fell it massively over it, a lot of hurtful things were said from both sides and 20 odd years of friends was gone.
We haven't spoken in 5 years. She's back for Christmas currently and she messaged to say she would like to come over this evening and see me. I now have two DC's so I said it will have to be at my house and she said that's fine.
I've agreed to it but I'm fucking bricking it. I'm nervous and I don't know how this is going to go. How do I approach it? AIBU for feeling like this?