To think nobody is as lazy and pointless as me?

[MPichu]

I work 4 days a week in a "mobile worker" job where I basically have a list of jobs and 7.5 hours to do them in. I start work at 8am and then come home for lunch where I spend around 2 hours just lounging on the sofa. I then go back to work until 4.30pm then get home and spend all night lounging on the sofa. I've stopped wearing my Fitbit as it was barely logging 4000 steps a day and was a constant reminder of how shit I am.

I am a member of an excellent gym in which I've not been to for over a month. It's 5 minutes away from my house. I really have no excuse, I even enjoy the classes but simply can't be arsed to go.

I have a dog who I don't walk. He hates going out in the cold and really protests and that is all the excuse I need not to bother.

This weekend I've done fuck all, literally. Friday I got up at 8am and lounges on the sofa until 11am until my mum got here. I then dragged myself out for lunch with her, took her home, got back and then lounged on the sofa all evening/night.

Saturday I got up at 9am, played on computer games and lounged on the sofa. I didn't even get dressed. Today I got up at 9.30 and have done absolutely nothing all day.

I honestly can't think of anyone as pointless and ridiculous as I am but I can't seem to snap myself out of it. AIBU to think I'm an absolute fucking joke?

I really relate to having so many ideas itv exhausts you. My brain is permanently in planning hyper drive. It's awful, I can never execute the smallest thing and all the overthinking wipes me out. I totally fall apart without routine and I feel overwhelmed by having even the tiniest amount of stuff to do. I freak out at the smallest disruption (a Dr appointment, in law visit, kids assembly) as throws spanner in schedule that I need to prop me up.

Re exercise, I try and work out what I can do now to help me go next time. So I pack gym bag, or get straight into clothes at weekend. I also log my exercise which is hugely motivating. I run and use strava, it connects me with my other running friends and we all give each other kudos. Strava plays a really big role in keepingr exercising and this just about head above water.

I also make lists, and use time rather than task eg eight min clean kitchen. Sometimes my lists overwhelm me though, so I am going to limit them to nine items from now on.

Also, don't undervalue the benefit of lazing around. I really need some lazing around and I see it in my kids too. It's just the way I am. I am so jealous of those people who say they always have to be doing something! In am ideal world, I'd earn the lazing around with exercise and getting jobs done in house, then beautiful hanging out for ages l, body aching from work out and house immaculate from cleaning

Have you thought about doing the couch to 5k OP? It’s quite a manageable, slowly increasing program that is designed for people who arent gym bunnies. It might help you to have a goal/project you can work on alongside the fitness aspect etc?

Tim
Do you take medication for your ADHD?

@persiancatlady I'm self diagnosed. So that's a no I just can't imagine turning up at Doc and requesting referral. Am in catchment area for top nhs adhd center as well. Just breading about adhd gas changed so much for me. It's been ten months since I started looking into this and it's like my whole world has changed. I am managing OK-ish with lots of exercise and am lucky to have fab husband a job I love. That really helps. Last week was bad though, really got stuck. Hugely fast head but could barely put socks on. This week lots better thank goodness. I do think about a private diagnoses, but mainly to relieve the guilt and help self esteem.

I'm self diagnosed
If you honestly believe that you have ADHD then I would recommend getting diagnosed and giving medication a go.

I genuinely believe that if I had been medicated from childhood then I would not have felt the need to waste nearly 13 years taking amphetamines.

Medication does not make me feel medicated or drugged, it makes me feel right.

Even people who I barely know can tell the difference in me when I haven't taken my tablets or when they are starting to wear off.

One thing that helps me is to listen to podcasts or audiobooks as a means of getting me off my arse. Somehow I don’t feel I’m being productive if I’m “only” cleaning or cooking or whatever. Some part of my brain seems to think that sitting on my arse reading article online is more worthy but the podcast tricks me into feeling productive

Ah you sound low OP

The bitter irony is that sound stuff and exercise cheers you up

I am writing a gratitude diary and honestly often the only thing I can write is ‘had a swimming session , went for a bike ride ‘

I feel pretty low atm too

No major advice actuallly but sympathy

You don't seem to have anything in your life that you care passionately about. Find a thing. Maybe try lots of stuff: hobbies, volunteering, study, exercise groups, whatever, keep trying thing until you find something that ignites you.

I doubt you are as lazy as me OP, I am currently not working and instead of looking for jobs or doing anything useful with my time after school run (my daily exercise), I park my arse on the sofa and google random things or watch rubbish daytime TV. And before I know it the whole morning's gone to waste. I force myself to get the shopping in, cook dinner and tidy up - DM likes to drop by unannounced so that is usually my motivation to dust and vac.

DH is a lazy git as well. He works long hours but his job involves sitting for most of the day. Has monthly gym membership via DD which hasn't been used in nearly eight months.

My Dbro was doing some DIY work for me on Sunday. He finished and then told me my backyard is a shit tip and asked when was the last I cleaned it I am a clean person but lazy, and cleaning the backyard is one job I have been putting off for weeks and weeks because of the cold. But then generally if I put off a job it gets left.

OP. When you say you lounge about, what do you do exactly? Watch TV? mumsnet mess around on the phone/tablet? snooze? I do all 3 but I've decided I need to limit what I watch on TV, turning it off when nothing us on. To limit my time online (turning off the wifi during the day), and to sleep on time at night - late nights make me tired, unmotivated and lethargic during the day and I feel the need to nap. I also need to take regular iron, vitamin D and B tablets as I find they help me greatly. And look for a sodding job.

I think there a are a fairly large number of people who slump at this time of year especially

So many posts resonate with me

How are ya op ?