to want to start a family just to break the loneliness?

[JammyGem]

DH's career means he works most evenings, and all big events - Bonfire Night, Halloween, Christmas, New Year's Eve etc.

We moved recently and I've really struggled to make any friends. I have bad anxiety but even when I make a big effort and really try with people it just seems people don't really like me. There's a few people at work but I'm not really close enough with them to meet up outside of work.

I'm just so sad that all the "big" days and events that I used to love and look forward to are just spent sitting on my own at home. I have no friends, and I'm too scared to go to something on my own.

If we started a family then at least I'd have company, and maybe through having a kid I could meet other people.

It's so pathetic that the only solution I can think of is to have a child just to stop me feeling so lonely and worthless, but I just wonder if it would actually work. And if it didn't, then I'd be so selfish and disgusting for creating a life for purely selfish reasons.

I'm sorry, I'm rambling. I'm just so lonely and sad and I haven't stopped crying all this evening. I just wish I wasn't so alone.

Write yourself a list...it's unnecessarily difficult to socialise outside London, with no car license.

Learn to drive
Pass test
Look at Meet-up App... There's bound to be something within driving distance...

Go and meet new pals with similar interests...

JammyGem which part of the uk are you in? X

Just saw you’re North Yorkshire. X

Somewhere like a petrol station, co op/spar or cleaning job in offices after hours two nights a week might be good. Ask in your local ones? You could do something like 6-10s and that money would pay for a driving lesson a week plus leftover cash towards test. You'd meet people, get out of the house and it wouldn't be forever anyway.

Maybe try a meet up group?

I'm in York if you want to PM me.
(NC but I was on your thread earlier)