Aibu to ask u to tell me your most painful

[Glowsticksforthehoechicks]

Moment , as in emotional , I actually feel like my heart may physically break is this normal ?

When my ex broke up with me.
We were having a baby but she was stillborn. We argued for a while and I was grieving hurt and angry and he said he didn't want to deal with me anymore and didn't love me. Kicked me out of our (in his name only) rented home and I turned up at my mums with 2 carrier bags of stuff.
I cried so hard I burst a blood vessel in my nose and had a horrific nosebleed for hours on end. It just wouldn't stop, it felt oddly fitting, really.
I'm okay now.

Yes. Feeling the pain in your heart and worrying, even through your grief, that it won't be able to take any more.

Seeing a loved one on a bed in the hospice after their battle with cancer which they fought with such strength and dignity but knowing that that was the last time I would see them alive. It was horrific because they were unresponsive and so sedated that they were basically no longer 'there' no amount of time or preparation truly prepares you for seeing the end of someone fighting cancer.

I really hope you're OK OP.

Thank you everyone who shares such personal hurt , I'm ok had an absolute shit week with knock after knock which I think has dredged up the past thank you lovely ladies for making me feel almost normal

Massive hugs and love to everyone on this thread xx

I'm so sorry op, please reach out to someone who can support you, and let yourself grieve whatever hurt/loss you're going through. We all have those moments we feel we can barely breathe.
i remember my sons father leaving us for another woman and telling me in front of her that I never meant anything to him

Or after getting out of the ICU post suicide attempt my dad saying he was angry I had upset the family and cost him money in medical bills

to the pp who have had deaths in their family too

My partner cheating. The other women put up pictures of them looking all lovey dovey on Facebook. My son had been let down again at the park, we all went there so he could see the kids (ow didnt want him round my house) and ow persuaded him not to go.

My partner being sent to prison (false accusations from ow). Getting pregnant whilst we were on the verge of breaking up. Him wanting to keep the child. (She's here now and every inch a bundle of lovely). Me knowing I wanted her but in practical terms it was a mess.

When my best friend died. Totally broke me. It was unexpected, an accident.

Thank you everyone for sharing I just wanted to say that really everyone on here is inspiring, I realise that even though we don't give ourselves enough credit we are true survivors , xxxx

My cousin he was like a brother committing suicide my heart broke that night never been the same since sometimes when I think of him my heart gets a strange feeling never will be over it 17 years this November.

Breaking up with a man I still loved because I knew I just couldn't be with him anymore
Having my PFB whipped away from me at the hospital and taken to neonatal
Sitting in a blue light ambulance with my baby girl on our way to emergency surgery for an infection that could kill her (it didn't)
The phone call from my dads friend saying he had just found his body. I collapsed at that one, had a panic attack

My mother died when I was 10. Very sudden, and unexpectedly (she was 47). Hometime at school, teacher beckoned me over and said my dad was waiting for me in the teachers' car park. Parents never parked there so right away I knew something was up.

A couple of years later, my dad remarried and it quickly became apparent the woman was a psychopath. She neglected us, starved us, lots of threats and emotional abuse. When the GP called in SS she had warning and tidied up the house and was baking cakes when they arrived. They left and I was called a liar. She continued to abuse us. I felt utter despair - and it was ongoing, for years. My step siblings did as well as our parents, together, became extremely cruel and neglectful. It broke my heart more years later, when i had kids of my own and realised the enormity of it.

When I got the call to say my mum's cancer was back and it was terminal. Holding her hand when she died was peaceful and a privilege to have been there

When the ultrasound scan showed our baby had died and the twinkling heartbeat of the previous scans had gone deathly still

When the Dr confirmed that after endless rounds of fertility treatment and miscarriage surgeries, that my womb was too damaged to ever carry a child

Hearing "i am so sorry there is no heartbeat." I think my heart broke. 8 yrs on and it still brings tears to my eyes. My wonderful, wanted, loved baby... :(

The day I realised that you could love someone so much with all your heart but it doesn't necessarily mean that you can be or should be together.

The pain was real and broke me in two. The love is my husband and his MH and physical health issues are enormously difficult to live with and sometimes I think it would be better for both of us to be apart.

We are in a better place right now but I'm damaged by it. The pain has gone, it was just that realisation that turned my world upside down - I had no idea!

I hope you make sense of your pain X

Oh God. Yes. There are things too painful to remember that come back and back at you. I actually can't share mine even anonymously on the internet.

It hurts and you get used to it but it doesn't get better. It will still make you cry at unexpected times.

But ultimately love puts you at risk. Love someoneunborn baby, child, parent, lover, friend, whoeverand you make yourself vulnerable to hurt.

But nonetheless love ❤️ is worth it. Don't fear it. Even though it is so terrible and wonderful. And short. Never long enough.

Jesus cried when his friend Lazarus died, even though he was about to raise him from the dead, because death is awful. You're in good company.

When I found out that my oldest, dearest friend had died aged 26. I could actually feel my heart breaking, it was a physical pain. I couldn't stop shaking, couldn't do anything, didn't know what to do. My heart hurt for the longest time. It's been over 4 years and i think about him less now, but it still hurts so so much. I will miss him forever.
to all on this thread.

When my little sister got brain cancer. She was only 7. She beat it, it came back. She died when she was 12. I've never felt a pain like it. But you move on, it gets easier somehow.

Hope you're okay OP ❤

My god this thread is hard to read. You are all amazing for what you've got through.
When I lost my dad I cried so hard I couldn't breath. And I just wanted to scream.
One off my miscarriages was particularly bad. Got to twelve weeks, seeing blood. Really broke my heart.
Finding out about one of many an affair (ex ). Room spun and my legs went to jelly.

When I found out that my dad has passed on a genetic illness to me, and that it will. Probably have passed on to my children. It causes the most appalling disabilities, and children rarely survive, and often responsible for stillbirth, and miscarriages. I've had 5, and my mum had 4 plus my stillborn brother. She wasn't allowed to see him, so I assumed that he was terribly deformed. It hurt so. Much
Like being kicked in the stomach. They already have Ehlers Danlos syndrome, which makes life tough, so to be saddled with some chromosomal abnormality thing is so. Unfair. Excuse my typing I have RA, and the weather is the pits.

I've had it a couple of times, for similar reasons to those that others have posted of. Where the pain is physical and you struggle to breathe.

I hope you have people to support you tonight Glowsticks.

Cherrychasing your post hit a real nerve. My mum did the same to me. I didn't think you could get 2 mothers like that. I hated her and still do for choosing to love him more than us.

In reality I know there must of been 100s of thousands of women that have done that to their children but your the first who I've spoke too. X

A child I loved like my own was murdered. To start with I was completely numb to the point that I felt guilty for carrying on as if nothing was wrong then on the day before the funeral it hit me like a hammer to the chest. That physical pain lasted weeks. 13 years later it still hits me unexpectedly sometimes. You learn to live with a hole in you.

In 1997, when my Grandad died. I was 13 but I remember being so overwhelmed by the hurt I couldn't make sense of anything for months.

In 2007, when I found out from a heartless, awful consultant who couldn't have cared less that my Dad was dying. The only thing that got me through that was the thought that his illness had put him in a coma before he really knew he was ill.

And this year, 8 days ago, when my partner of 13 years who I had fought so hard to be with, make happy, and fit in to his life told me he didn't want me enough and doesn't think he ever did. And actually described our relationship as a mistake. Luckily, because he is a non-commital twat, I have my own home and job so there is no actual toes other than the pain of knowing what I thought all along but he denied was true - I was never good enough.

Right now I feel like I could go one of two ways on this. It really could make or break me and I guess the next few months will tell.

I realise this sounds like crud in comparison to what everyone else has talked about. But the pain is real right now.

I've just realised from my post... 2027 is going to be a bitch!!

How very strange wheresdoesthisroadgo that everything happens involving a seven , sorry to hear what your going through xxx