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My mother turned up to visit my newborn in hospital high on drugs

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lawnofdelray · 20/09/2017 01:14

My mother had significant mental health problems and has recently taken the decision to come off her long acting mental health medicine against medical and faniku advice due to weight gain.

When she is well she is wonderful. When she is ill she is manic, aggressive, abusive and violent. For several years she had a speed problem and seemed to have conquered it but I have suspected relapse for several weeks now.

I've just had my first baby after a week long hospital stay, three day labour and an emergency c section.
My mother turned up on the train unannounced with balloons, cards, gifts the works... but very clearly high on speed.
All the tell tale signs were there including being aggressive when challenged. I asked her to leave her she refused and threatened to hit me, to which I told her I would call the police.
She then told my DH that she wasn't high and new mothers are always a mess with hormones.
She said she came all this way to stay for a few weeks to get my house 'in order' again, I told her I won't have drug use around my child and to leave. She refused. I asked DH to call security and she became very aggressive. I left the room and told the midwives the situation. DH took her to the station to go gone.

I'm devastated. Disappointed. Heartbroken. I feel so hurt and let down but not surprised. She kept saying how she had spent £50 on the train and more on gifts and I know it's alot of money for her but I just can't have her around my newborn.
I feel so so so sad. So guilty. Please can someone talk to me.

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Awwlookatmybabyspider · 20/09/2017 16:31

Awwwwww. Lawn she's delicious.

AdalindSchade · 20/09/2017 16:34

She's beautiful Flowers

aaaaargghhhhelpme · 20/09/2017 16:40

She's gorgeous Flowers
Many many congratulations. Take care of yourself (and your new lovely little family)

LonnyVonnyWilsonFrickett · 20/09/2017 16:45

Oh she's adorable!

I'd get yourself a nice handcream rather than a manicure, you've no idea how much handwashing you'll do over the next few weeks!

Anyway, here's a note for your beautiful daughter:

Dear Noa

I know you're far too young to understand this yet, but I want you to know that your mum is amazing. There is nothing she won't do to protect you, even if it means making really hard decisions and hurting herself in the process. She is going to protect you every day of your life and one day she is going to help you understand that sometimes other people can't be the people we want them to be, even if they try really hard.

Now be a good girl and let your mamma have a nap.

Lonny xxx

sleepymama81 · 20/09/2017 16:55

Oh god Lawn, I read your other thread. You've had a crappy time of it haven't you, and now this too.

Parenthood is full of tests, tests and more tests. You've just passed the first one, you've made a tough decision which hurts in order to protect your daughter. You're doing just great.

This is not your fault. You can't make your mum better. She is ill and her illness makes her selfish. You are so right to set form boundaries in place right now. Make sure you stick to them.

I'm with your OH. Go and treat yourself, you deserve it!

Starlight2345 · 20/09/2017 17:31

Apart from what a gorgeous little girl..

Your OH sounds fantastic too.. Be kind to yourself...I agree Wait on the manicure.

Ellendegeneres · 20/09/2017 17:49

Squeeeeee what a gorgeous little bundle of yumminess! Congratulations!

I just want to echo what's already been said- you're not responsible for her health or happiness. She threatened you. Simple really. You've got to realise that none of this is your fault, she's sadly a very damaged individual and when someone is an addict, the only person who can change that is them.

Go home, put the £50 in a drawer. When you're feeling better and used to your new shape (my figure changed after dc) buy something that you can wear with pride, something that makes you feel beautiful. Maybe a necklace, a ring, or a dress. Or go get your nails done. Do NOT transfer it to her. You didn't ask for her to come, you didn't ask to be abused when you've been through so much.

Sending lots of Flowers

emmyrose2000 · 21/09/2017 10:11

Congratulations on your lovely baby! :)

She's only a few days old and already you've done a wonderful thing, by protecting her from her vile grandmother.

Your mother's actions and choices are not your fault or responsibility! She's the one making all these crappy decisions. It's not up to you to "fix" it or take on the burden of her nasty and irrational behaviour.

Don't even THINK about giving her back the train money. If you don't want to spend it on your nails either, then buy something for your gorgeous new baby. :)

justilou1 · 21/09/2017 10:26

Noa is a beautiful little fairy! Congratulations!!! My mother (who died in Dec) and brother both have had problems with addiction and consequent mental health issues, so you have my empathy.

When my babies were born, my mother went batshit in her own way too. I know a lot of people are going to tell you not to give her money as you will only be enabling her, etc.... and while that's true, it is important to listen to your conscience as well. You have to learn to differentiate between your genuine conscience and the way you have been conditioned to think by your mother. (Mine had a brilliant way of manipulating me to get what she wanted, that I would only recognise after the fact) I am only just starting to come to terms with the fact that while my mother's issues were one thing, she was also a horrible, horrible person. (Not just to me, it seems)

When she was dying I moved from the Netherlands back to Australia to nurse her (and trust me - her behaviour did not improve at all...). I did not do this because I am a matyr, or because I had anything to gain. I certainly wasn't expecting an American sitcom-style resolution (faaaaar from it). I did it because it was the right thing to do according to my conscience and because I wanted my kids to see how decent human beings behave. Now I am being bombarded with phone calls from my brother who needs someone to do his thinking for him now that my mother is gone, and I am having to kindly set boundaries - which is really not easy - especially knowing that he is really the product of his upbringing.

Anyhow, you sound like you are genuinely kind - which is a character trait that I consider to be very rare and very valuable in this day and age, and your husband sounds like an absolute GEM of a human. Between you, it sounds like you are on the right path to raise another awesome example of humanity!

Congratulations again!!!

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