WTF would you do, if you were me

[MollyWantsACracker]

I'm 47. I'm slim, fit, reasonably clever, good-looking ("for my age")
I have a good-ish job in an interesting place
I'm in a dead marriage. We live under the same roof, parent, get along fine.
I feel like I don't want to live any more.
I just don't see much of a point, apart from upsetting people for a bit. Well in truth I don't want to damage my children
everyone else would (apart from my lovely sister) be ok.

At what point though. Do you just.

I know there are people out there, clinging to life by any means available. Suffering through all sorts of pain. Amazing people.

I'm not amazing. I'm not amazing. There's nothing wrong with me that you can point to.

For me, I just feel dead inside, that I have no hope for joy any more. And there's no point.

I do understand how it comes to this, my situation is very similar. Thinking of you, and wishing you strength.

The exact same thing has happened to me... in a dead marriage, met someone at work, we were both besotted, he left his wife, I had already split twice before so was a little more cautious this time, plus he had told me a few fibs so trust went, 2.5 years later I left my job (not working still), had a bit of a break down as was renovating a house and also studying..he kept on at me to leave, then when I was ready, he said he was having marriage guidance with his wife and was going back.. all whilst sleeping with me...I'm devastated, can't function, also starting the menopause as period has stopped. I've booked an appointment with doctors because I have to do something... you have to do something too.. baby steps... you're grieving... but you have to change your situation somehow... build your confidence back... start making little plans... but know this... it will pass.. you will meet someone or he may come back to you.. people want to be around happy people, get your happy back... if you want to private message me then that's fine .. ok x