DP and I are both in our late twenties, we've been dating for 3 months.
Curled up in my bed together last night, I came over all soppy and told him I loved him.
A few weeks ago he'd half said it when drunk and also has mentioned on multiple occasions moving in together - so I didn't really think it would be a big deal.
He pulled me closer, kissed me lots and didn't say anything. He kept on snuggling into me and kissing. It was a bit strange after a while and in the end I asked if he was OK, and (with a bit of a jokey tone) if I'd freaked him out. He half laughed and said he was trying to work out why he was freaked out. He then carried on snuggling and kissing.
About an hour later I asked again if he was OK, and he said yes. He denied saying he was freaked out and fell asleep.
He was acting normal and affectionate this morning.
Thing is, now I'M freaked out.
Straight up, I feel like a wanker for saying anything, and then for following it up with questions.
I'm mortified that I said something and it didn't go down well.
My last boyfriend left me just hours after I got made redundant, turned out he'd just been living with me for my money. This has given me trust issues/excess paranoia.
I know now that I'm going to be anxious about this new relationship (even more) and am just waiting for him to leave me, now that I've put my foot in it.
I'm so surprised it went down like that, as previously he'd been the more affectionate one.
It's perhaps worth noting that he's never really had a serious relationship, so perhaps this is the first I love you, he's had.