I've tried really hard to be a Mum. 3 years now. But despit white a bit of support (goes to his dads every weekend, holidays are spent with my parents). I have no bond with my Son.
I work and am not depressed. I'm so happy with my family and friends. I love my job. The only think I can't stand is being around my son.
He gives me a headache. I wish I'd never had him. Being a Mum has made my life worse. I was much much happier before h was here.
After years of struggling to make this decision. He's going to be living with his Dad from next month and I will see him one night every week.
Everyone who knows is horrified and thinks I'm the devil. I never ever expected to be a rubbish Mum.
I think it's a combination of factors (no stead job,live in a rough area,live alone).
I wasn't in a position to be a full time parent. I look back at his baby pictures and feel sadness at how awful a time it was. My mum said I should give my son to his dad as I struggle too much and she's right.
I am not depressed. I'm just a deadbeat mum. I'm never ever going to have another child. Should never have had one.
I do love my Son. I just have no desire to look after him day to day.
AIBU to think I'm just not cut out to be a Mum? I don't think I'm depressed. I'm the happiest person alive when my son isn't there. He just bores me. Everything about him is boring.
I can't wait until he's an adult so I can actually enjoy having a relationship with him.