Ok so yesterday I received my long awaited hearing aids!
Apprehensive but excited, that maybe I would finally hear the phone, answer the door and not miss my delivery's or hear my sons shouting me (although it is quite convenient at times to not hear them) lol!
And maybe id finally not feel such a fool each time I'm in a conversation and repeatedly need to say sorry? What did you say?
So along I went.
I was greated by a lovely lady who took the time to thourally explain everything to me, I was blown away tbf by the level of tech used to personalise each aid. It was fantastic to see just how it all worked.
Then we get the fine tuning done and she pops them in and 'oh my god' I jumped feet.
I thought ffs she's got the volume wrong.
However she told me that this is my prescription and it shows just how much hearing I had lost, she explained iv basically got to get used to them and Teach my brain again. She said I did have quite a profound loss but it's certain pitches tones and sounds in particular making it hard in my case.
So I put my big girl pants on and called by tesco on way home I figured if I could do tesco in high volume I'm on my way.
Walking around I felt like I was in another world every foot step, ever squeak of the trolly at pitch volume and I felt like my brain was going to explode.
Needless to say I headed out and actually kept them in until about 8 last night because I had the most immense head ache and I actually found my peaceful muted world " better"and Since then iv just keep arguing with myself that I need this, I should be grateful (which I am) but more so that some people would kill to even benefit from the aid.
Iv tried & tried today which again has left me with a wopper of a headache.
So Aibu? To actually prefer to happily live in my own hearing zone and maybe give them back?
I hope this makes sense it's hard to explain but I'm finding the whole thing actually painful I was so excited and feel a bit deflated which is stupid I know but I totally did not think it would be so overwealming.
Iv other health issues like I have to catheterise, I'm also on a liquid diet so can't eat solids due to further issues and i have sever anaemia too 😒
and I'm recently divorced (not that I can blame this on the narc) but just feeling in all a bit low, with zero self-esteem etc.. And feeling rather shit if im honest 😕
So PLZ don't flame me, I'm just after any advise? If you've been there and have a solution.
I guess I'm just needing to vent, a handhold! Oh I don't know maybe iabu, am I?