To still be pissed off that my husband raped me

[StillASlaveToHim]

and that there was nothing, not a thing, I could do to stop him or do anything about it?

It happened years ago but I still get annoyed at him, at just everything in general, and at just the fact I was completely powerless. I couldn't report him, I couldn't leave him, I couldn't confide in anyone so I just had to put up with him ignoring me when I said "no" sometimes.

It is not normal to still be angry years later, is it?

And military, barristers, postitions of power.

YANBU and I am so sorry that you were raped
What happened to you was horrific, you suffered tremendous violation in many ways on multiple occasions.
It is normal to be traumatised by repeated abuse and sexual assault. It is normal to survive and experience post-traumatic stress disorder.
An outrage has been perpetrated upon you, so much wrong has been done and there is no justice. Your police officer husband, an impostor, a criminal, upholding the very law of the entitled patriarchy which protected him and allowed him to violently attack you without consequence. You had no agency and have had no recourse.
It is normal to feel enraged and consumed by a burning injustice.
I hope your counselling helps you.