AIBU to not be thrilled at pregnancy news (not mine!)

[flirtygertiefromnumber30]

My husband and I have been struggling to conceive now for around 18 months. We've tried various medical interventions to no effect (except causing me to develop serious health anxiety which has led to me having to take anti-depressants), and we are currently taking a break for any intervention for the sake of my sanity!

When I hear someone else's happy pregnancy news AIBU to feel a bit sad and jealous? My husband thinks that I am being awful and selfish feeling this way but I can't help it! He came home yesterday and blithely announced his friend's wife is pregnant with twins and I just feel so miserable today.

Obviously it's lovely news for them but I am so worried it's never going to happen for us and I feel like a terrible failure. Am I a horrible unreasonable person??

(Although I still feel like stabbing the women outside the maternity hospital smoking!)

Arrghhhhh....I get this! When I walked out the hospital crying after an mc and saw pregnant women smoking I wanted to scream in their faces!

Yanbu at all. It's a really tough time. I always remember thinking I'll wait no problem for my turn if someone could just tell me that it will happen. It's the uncertainty.
Please don't do what I did, to prove to myself I was fine I held a baby leaving party in my house for a colleague whose baby was due a day before my miscarried baby would have been. I kept feeling I had to give out good karma to get it back. Such a stupid thought and I nearly had a breakdown over it.
Mind yourself..