Can someone help me get everything sorted today? I know this is pathetic but I'm orphaned and have no-one else to ask.
The last few months have been hard, culminating in me losing my much-loved job. It was unfair dismissal and I've accepted an out-of-court settlement to save myself the stress of seeing court through - I've got bipolar and it has been HARD. I haven't slept properly in months and am being visited every other day by the crisis team.
A company I worked with for my old employer wants to hire me. I should be thrilled. It'd be more money and they love me. I withdrew from applications when I originally became self-employed because my contract forbid me working for them; they postponed applications. They've started calling me often this week and have talked me into interviewing on Friday - but I still have the contract problem and I'm not well enough to commute four hours a day to work. I was up all night crying at the thought of having to tell them... I just can't write the email; I feel that I'm really letting them down. Their contract also forbids this, but they don't seem to care, really.
I need to go and pick up my tablets from the pharmacy. It's 15 minutes walk. It will do me good; but I can't go. I haven't left the house in days.
I have a big meeting with various psychologists and psychiatrists late next week to make a new treatment plan; but the crisis team want to admit me until then. They are worried that I'm not sleeping; keep crying; generally can't cope. I have had a headache all week and my heart rate is four times higher than my average. I am hiding from the postman, for no reason. I really hate hospitals, I have an intense phobia... so I need to sort everything and hope that when the crisis team come at 4pm, I'm okay. I just don't know how to start.
I need a hug.