To give up my career for the sake of my sanity

[lastqueenofscotland]

I need to be a bit careful as I know I have a few colleagues who MN! So will have to be vague.

I took a graduate role, good salary etc a few years ago. Big company, world wide, tens and tens of thousands of employees.
Since then my responcibility has increased, but not my salary.

But mainly it's so stressful, I am drowning g under the workload, I have the biggest portfolio, literally double the size of most other people's and when this is raised I get told there isn't the man power at the moment etc/everyone else is busy. Erm I've got double the work.
I went on holiday recently and really wish I hadn't had gone, I've still not caught up. I no longer have a lunch break because the mass of stuff I'll come back to if I so much as go to the cafe for half an hour is obscene. Even going to the loo I dread what I'll miss in 5 minutes.
None of my colleagues can help ease my workload yet when I look round I see people browsing holiday sites, chatting merrily to each other, I don't have time to do that, and if ever I pick up the phone they'll never take the call so I have to deal with their shit too.

I've mentioned this to my boss and she said she's had a word with the worst offenders for phone dodging and it's getting nowhere.

It really reached a head today where yesterday is forgot to forward one email. One lousy email, not even for an urgent issue (will be 2-4 weeks before anything needs to be done) and suddenly the partner who is head of our whole division is sending me emails asking what the hell is going on.
It reached a stage where I ended up being so stressed about the situation (which had been easily resolved by me forwarding the email this morning) I felt like my legs were going to buckle and ended up throwing up in the loo. But I've got people nagging me all day about this. I appreciate I made a mistake but the level it got escalated to was totally disproportionate. Yet the lady that called in sick to go on long weekend got a "don't do it again" email from her line manager.

I had a really aggressive eating disorder at university and find myself wishing I was still that ill as I'd get sick leave/people might go easy on me if I was still 6 stone.

The only thing that's keeping me there is there are 3/4 people there I really really love. But it doesn't really seem worth it any more.
I've found a new job, which would mean I could move in with DP at long last, the money would be a bit better but the long term prospects not nearly as good, but all I can see is more money less stress.

Wibu to give up a potential career for life for the sake of my sanity.

Sorry that was long

[Lorelei76]

OP on resignation day you will feel like this
m.youtube.com/watch?v=iFNLbAs3KAU

[lastqueenofscotland]

My friend who let herself get equally bogged down said she cry-laughed in the loos for about an hour after she handed hers in the other week!
Lesson well and truely learnt and thanks to good old MN feeling ready to face the world, if not my inbox.