Feel so sad for him. He has been so looking forward to having his party (6th) at a certain venue this year. We have had 5 acceptances, 5 can't make it and 5 non responses. I have had to pay for the minimum 10 anyway and feel so bad for DS that he will have so few of his classmates there.
I would have invited the whole bloody class if I'd known so few would turn up!
I feel so guilty because I find chat at the school gate very difficult and I wonder if that's why so few parents are bringing their DC. I don't talk to anyone as such, although always smile and say hi to anyone who acknowledges me but few do.
I suffer from crippling PTSD and OCD and find it so draining making small talk as I worry I will come across as a freak and will spend hours dissecting the convo afterwards in case I have said something out of place, so it's easier to just say nothing at all. Most of the other Mums have got into groups now and I am on the sidelines as usual. There was a group collection for the teacher, that was presented to her yesterday, I was not included in it, knew nothing about it and would have gladly given to it. Gave last year.
I am used to feeling lonely for myself but feel that as the other parents probably think I am up my backside or cold which is how I've been told I come across, that my little DS is being impacted too. He gets on well with everyone at school, his teacher describes him as a ray of sunshine and beautifully behaved so it's not that he is not liked so I assume it's because the other parents don't like me call me paranoid which I am! .
We have no family to celebrate with so his party was his celebration. I have older DC who all had parties and never did so few turn up to theirs but my anxiety was not so bad then and it was easier to talk to other parents while DC were lining there. At DS's school parents drop at gate.
Feel so shit and don't know how to change things for him.