AIBU to ask how many of you have secrets you don't tell a soul?

[anotheroneofmeagain]

Just that really. How many people have a secret or secrets so big or disturbing that they can't utter them to a soul.

Also if you do how on earth do you stop it driving you totally insane?!

Yes Edmund I take two different medications for anxiety now

I have one huge secret that nobody else knows, but there would be no point in telling anyone as it would benefit nobody and potentially cause a lot of harm. I rarely think about it and will take it to my grave.

I have loads of confidences where "you are the only person I am telling this to ..." which probably everyone knows.

I have two secrets that I am sure pale in comparison to other secrets but I still am ashamed of them.

I have one. Something I did when I was a lot younger. I am not proud of it but also not that guilt-stricken either. I wish I hadn't been in the situation but I was and it was a crap situation to be in so young, I didn't behave well and there it is.

It is the only thing in my life I have never said to another human being - even therapists. Many years ago my best friend gave me an opening to tell her (she knows me very well and probably suspected what had happened) but I didn't.

I'm ok with keeping my secret. I wish it hadn't happened. But it hasn't ruined my life.

Yes, but doesn't everyone? I know some things that would totally blow friendships apart if they came out

I know loads of these - but while I wouldn't tell the people involved I probably have told my husband or my best friend - or even a stranger on a train if you happened to get chatting about personal stuff. What I am talking about is something you literally have said to no one at all.

On a lighter note, I once was in charge of a meeting which involved getting all participants access to a very high security area. So I had to get their social security nos and dates of birth. We encrypted the information when sending it to protect security but it did give me the date of birth of a female member of our board of directors who (and I don't blame her given her business ) deliberately (and easily) played about 10 years younger than she was - sort of a timeless middle aged look. I never told a soul her date of birth although a few colleagues I am friends with did fish quite blatantly.

No, I have none - I'm far too much of a blabber mouth. If I do something bad,that I am ashamed of, I have to tell my Mum and my best friend - it's almost as though I expect them to absolve me, somehow.

I have a secret but a few people in my family know, I was one of four people involved in the fallout. The thing is I would probably speak about it except for everyone has been so hushed about it I'm starting to wonder if it ever actually happened in the first place. My family need an award for 'carrying on regardless' and not in a good way!

I have a couple that no-one needs to know, one of which could hurt DH immeasurably, the other is so shameful I can't imagine many people being OK with it. Although actually, my best friend knows both of them so maybe they don't count.

No secrets although there are things I just don't talk about because I don't need to as I've already told someone iyswim.

I had a mildly evil thought last week about cutting a certain person out of a Will, I'll have to keep that quiet because DH would be pissed off. So I suppose that counts, kind of.

I have one that has been bubbling up recently. Nobody is harmed or under any illusions by me telling nobody and if I did tell, it could have repercussions for someone in my family. I am not sure if that person actually "knows" it as it was a late night happening and they may have been too drunk to realise.

I have a couple of secrets, really they're just memories I'd rather forget. I figured in telling people they are more likely to bring it up whereas if I keep it to myself I will hopefully forget about it at some point.

I just retain information. I don't tend to think of things as secrets because I just file them away never to be spoken of again. I tend to compartmentalise automatically.

I'm quite self sufficient and don't share my own thoughts with anyone really. I like to process things internally.