I started threads in both mental health and relationships and no replies.
I don't know where to turn so I've come here.
I have a history of suicide attempts due to poor mental health (linked to childhood and teenage trauma).
I can feel myself slipping, and I have no one I can turn to.
Ex-P has been badgering me non stop since I went NC, telling me he knows it's only a matter of time before I try it again, or I end up attacked again if I try to go and meet someone.
I'm scared of myself right now.
I've sent DS to his paternal nans for the night so he's not here to see me in a state.
What do I do?
I should explain the "attacked again".
After my last break up (5 years ago), I went on a bit of a boozy night out and ended up being sexually assaulted, which after previous childhood abuse has put a great deal of fear into me about meeting new people, and it was always Ex-P go to if he wanted to stop me going out while we were together.
(I've posted in mental health too, but unsure of whether it will be seen there)