Dh or aibu?

[sleepy16]

I need other people's perspective on aibu or dh is.
He works, I'm a sahp with 6 children (all children are my dh).
Ages from 15 years down to 18 weeks, we have a disabled son and the eldest has some sen.
I have pnd and I am on tablets for it, I am some what better but not fully.
Dh plays football 3 times a week, goes to the gym.
Not long been away for the weekend, and goes for nights out with friends.
I don't go out, some because I am finding it hard to motivate myself to do so, and because I'm ebf and tbh knackered.
Now dh has been pretty horrible towards me (picking holes in everything I do) and I know most of the time he does this as he wants something and if we are arguing then he won't feel bad about doing it.
Turns out he wants to go to the USA with friends for 10 days in November.
I have said to him he is an adult so it's up to him, but with my depression (he said why shouldn't he have fun still only because I'm depressed) and it's a lot of money then I think he is being a little bit selfish.
So what would you think in the situation?

[CantAffordtoLive]

No bloody wonder you're depressed and don't want to go out. You must be knackered.

He is being extremely selfish. You should leave him to cope with all the children by himself for a week and see how he gets on. Possibly he will appreciate your point of view then.

I think you are amazing to cope.

[TheVillageTaxpayer]

Is there a specific activity he wants to visit the USA for, such as a major sport event, industry conference, etc. or does he just want to hang out for 10 days?

To be honest I can see where it would be difficult after many years with a depressed person and one would want to break out and feel carefree at least once in a while. BUT after choosing to make six children with said depressed person, one has limited one's options to the point where what one wants to do is pretty irrelevant. He needs to focus on his chosen responsibilities.

[Ledkr]

I'd let him go and spend the time planning my ten day break which I would leave for in the day he returned.

[RavioliOnToast]

Id be tempted to wave him off in November, pack your bags and fuck off for when he comes back. Use the time between now and then to sort your finances out.

[sleepy16]

I have not been depressed for years, only since after my 18 week old was born.
And we have taĺked and he realises he was being selfish, and he has apologised for in his words being a 'dick'.
I just wanted to see if it was me being unreasonable with having pnd as I know it can cloud my judgement.