To quit my job because I am crap at it

[crapatwork]

Is it unreasonable to quit for these reasons?

Probably not. But I feel I am useless at work and I feel like a fraud taking money for a job I'm rubbish at

Supply pay is on a par with permanent staff across the year. The daily rate is, in fact higher, I believe, in order to make up for not being paid in the holidays.

Have a look at the scenes frim the battleground blog. He describes those kind if classes. It is not just you and its not your fault. We all have that class at some point.

This was why I didn't want to admit that I was a teacher! Clam cover work is never marked in my experience it's nearly always a poster anyway.

Clam I can assure you I am not paid anywhere near what I was as when I was permanent. And at none of the schools I supply at (and keep getting asked back to by name) am I expected to mark. Neither did I expect cover to mark for me when I was supply.
There is no way, for example, I can adequately mark Spanish, DT, History GCSE or ALevel work - I just don't have the subject knowledge! I am also only paid for the lessons I cover. So no marking time given.

In our primary school, a supply who did not mark work would not be asked back.

Sorry for poor post above. I'm knackered and should really go to bed! Hopefully you got the gist of what I meant :)

Ah - yes primary is different :)

I thought you were Louis Van Gaal. Honestly OP there are TONS of people who are a lot worse at their jobs that you are at yours. I promise!!

Maybe you should try a different school? I used to teach in a really tough school and a successful lesson there was just keeping all kids in the room! I was a bouncer most of the time. I changed school to one very far away and just girls with very few behaviour issues and I am much much happier. I actually get to teach! Don't get me wrong there's a lot of stuff I hate about teaching - I'm not saying if you change schools you will
suddenly love it.

Clam, in secondary supply teachers don't mark.

Secondary supply teachers definitely don't plan or mark - one of the things I was shocked by when I became a secondary school teacher after 5 years working in an office job was the fact that even if you woke up needing to vomit at 3am and it became obvious you had a severe D&V bug or full on proper flu, that was no excuse not to email a properly planned set of five lessons suitable to be delivered by a non subject teacher (so unlikely to be the lessons you would have been teaching that day if not taken ill) into school before 7:30am...

If you were "crap" at it. You wouldn't be there.

Would say I work with lots of people who are crap - they don't realize/mind so unless your employer has a problem don't worry.

What really matters is whether you are happy. If you are not happy then I suggest you think of what kind of job will make you happy and plan how you are going to get there.

Don't resign - find the new job first then resign. its much easier to get a new job from an existing one than having to explain why you decided to quit. And you have no money which is never good...

good luck

OP - a little tale from me. Left a tough school after many years. Always felt 'crap' when I worked there.
Now at a good school. Have realised I'm highly skilled, a grafter and know every trick in the book so can outsmart the kids. I feel valued and it's better all round. There is more trust and autonomy and I leave at 4pm.

In every job I've had I've felt a fraud...but I have no choice, the bills come in and family needs money. I just have to live with it. My family just assumes all is well and just does not think about what happens when I'm at work. I go through periods of depression when I can't face things, and its generally during those periods that I mess something up, and this feeds through to a difficult situation sometime later, and its then best to move on and get another job. Nothing I do is critical to the health or safety of others. This thread really resonates with me - its my working life for 30 years. I cant get off the treadmill because of money, money, money.

I am not a teacher but I feel exactly the same. I've even considered asking for a demotion, I'm very good and enjoy parts of my job but others I just feel anxious and like I'm rubbish at them.

I've been doing my job for 2 years but I think my problem is that because of my previous work history I was further ahead when I started than most new people. I was given a task that most people wouldbt get at just over 1 year in the role and I feel like everyone expects me to know more than I do.

I'm trying to not worry about it just now, it would not be a good time for me to ask for demotion for various reasons. I've written myself an email which outlines how I feel right now and it's scheduled to send to me in 6 months so I can reevaluate.

If you are truly not happy in your role, and you can survive without it, then I think you should leave. If you csn face staying until you find something else then I think that would be better.

Good luck!

Fucking zombie thread ffs

Have you been told you're crap? Or do you just think you are?

Look for a job in the independent sector? Smaller classes may be the answer. Or consider moving into primary school work?

Zombie Thread!
OP, please come back and tell us what you ended up doing!

FFS hadn't noticed the date!

It's really hard as I am good at some aspects but other parts I'm rubbish at, it makes me miserable and dread those parts

Everyone has strengths and weaknesses in any role, OP. Very few people are good at the whole job!

Could you benefit from training or mentoring in those areas where you feel you are less competent? Could you buddy up with a colleague whose strong in the areas where you feel your performance is poor?

I pick my colleagues' brains all the time, most of us do in our team. We have one colleague who is brilliant at a narrow, but very complex area of work that doesn't come up very often. It's not worth all of us trying to grasp a huge raft of legislation and case law for something that might only appear in our case load once a year, so we just ask him. There's another area that everyone comes to me or our manager about. Our manager comes to me about another niche area where I seem to have acquired a specialism.

Don't beat yourself up, OP, you wouldn't still be in the job if you were that crap at it!