To be fuming that I can't get a GP's appointment this morning?

[MintyChapstick]

I'm so angry and upset.

Since before Christmas I have felt that my mental health has been declining. Feeling panicky, wired, on edge and its now got to the point where I am no longer sleeping properly. Keeping waking up very early even on the weekend, with this overwhelming feeling of doom and terrior. I have been medicated before, I know this will make me feel better but I cant get a fucking GP'sappointment, they only have one doctor in the surgery you see despite covering a massive area and you can longer book an appointment in advance.

There is no drop in service like there is in other surgeries, you have to ring on the morning and get an appointment like that. I rang at 8.30 on the dot the surgery was still closed, a minute later I tried again engaged, I finally managed to get through at 8.36 and all the appointments had gone. How is it possible for every single appointment between 9am and 1pm when they close for lunch to have gone in six minutes?

I had psyched myself up to see a doctor this morning, I could have started my medication today and it would have been in my system by next week when I go back to work. I know from the last time that it makes you worse before it makes you better. I've been in tears all morning, I need my medication! The receptionist was nice, but sort of non plussed, I guess it's not hear fault but I don't believe there are no appointments. In fact I can just picture the fucking waiting room now, elderly people who are there several times a week with bunions and in growing toe nails (we all know the sort) clogging it up whilst people who are really unwel can't get seen.

How they fuck is this right?

I'll never get why people enjoy bullying fellow MNers, especially MNers with MH problems. Why not just go and kick around a homeless person? There are plenty of them on the streets. [For anyone who doesn't get irony: I am not seriously suggesting this, because it would be wrong.]

I think it comes from some notion that if MH problems strike, it's your fault. Sad really in this day and age.

I feel OK in myself, but Im really having to force myself to do things. I feel like I just want to sit on the sofa all day and watch Netflix which probably isn't ideal. I feel like I should be doing things but am struggling to find the strength to do it.

I'm usually quite an active person and I don't like to be sitting still for long, so this is unusual for me.

Give it time Minty. If you can do the basics, shower daily, short walk, you're doing fine for now.

I feel so lazy just sitting here doing nothing, because I do have things that need doing but I feel really listless. Even writing this post is taking loads of effort. Managed a shower, washed my hair and died it last night so not all bad.

To the person who said they were glad that I feel 'bright and breezy now' I really wish I did feel like that!

Well done on getting yourself seen minty. Focus on your self care for now. Little by little, you will get there.

Yes, maybe what you said wasn't kind but really people, I would think that there'd be an awareness among adults that someone struggling with mental health issues may say something wrong.
This incessant need among people to Be Right On The Internet is a little pathetic.

Minty.

I challenge every single poster on this thread to watch the following programme:

www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b07187xv/my-baby-psychosis-and-me

Then - come back here - and apologise to the thousands of posters who have suffered through mental illness and who have been affected by reading your utter ignorance of mental illness and crass, uninformed, gratuitous and cruel attacks.

Tell me, after you have watched this programme, whether you now think that cancer is comparable.

Thank you.

Tell me, after you have watched this programme, whether you now think that cancer is comparable.

I did watch it.

I have had MH problems including a nervous breakdown.

I have terminal cancer.

Comparing the two is like comparing chalk and cheese.

Of course mental health can be serious in the same way physical health problems can be serious, both can be minor or moderate too.

I don't know that it is helpful to presume the worst - that's what my mum's GP did and she spent decades addicted to medications and in and out the local psych ward because of it.

I've had mental health problems too and would have been much worse if I didn't have to take responsibility for my own wellbeing. Not everyone is well enough to do that, I'm not saying they are but presuming they are entirely incapable isn't right either.

Chalk and cheese eh? When did you watch it. Surely not yesterday. Because you wouldn't have made the comments you have made if you had watched it.
When?

Chalk and cheese eh? When did you watch it. Surely not yesterday. Because you wouldn't have made the comments you have made if you had watched it.
When?

I watched it when it was on last night. In my hospital bed after having yet more surgery that probably won't save my life.

I didn't say they weren't both serious, I said they were different but hey continue to jump down my throat.

'Then - come back here - and apologise to the thousands of posters who have suffered through mental illness and who have been affected by reading your utter ignorance of mental illness and crass, uninformed, gratuitous and cruel attacks.

Tell me, after you have watched this programme, whether you now think that cancer is comparable.

Thank you.'

You can apologise for being sactimonious any time.

I have MN issues. Serious ones. They come from watching my child die from cancer.

As part of the bereaved parent community, I know many parents whose children ended their lives. I had two friends who ended their lives after their children died.

They are not comparable. At all.

Thank you.

Yes - they ARE comparable. I will reiterate, they both cause tremendous suffering, horrific pain and can both ultimately result in death. Therefore, they ARE comparable.
It is not gracious nor caring nor empathetic nor kind to entirely dismiss one illness (equally as lethal) as being 'less than' another.
People are campaigning left, right and centre for the stigma of mental illness to change. Please look at what you are saying.
The two women in that programme had as much chance of not succumbing to that illness as any sufferer of cancer has.
Nowhere ever, will you read that cancer sufferers don't suffer as much as mental illness sufferers. Please at least try to show the same respect.

I think it would be helpful to have a separate thread to help those suffering with cancer.

Perhaps another to support minty and others with similar problems.

expat. Hope you are OK. I still think about you and your DD.

Mnet's supposed to be supportive. I have lost a child due to a congenital heart defect, a parent due to cancer and have been dealing with a depressed teenager. It is all unspeakable and all differently so. Hatefulness helps nobody; forgiveness is a,useful tool.

This thread has been Mnet at its worst.

It is not gracious nor caring nor empathetic nor kind to entirely dismiss one illness (equally as lethal) as being 'less than' another.

I didn't say they are. I said they are different. Please stop twisting people's words.

As for respect. It works both ways. You basically accused me of lying and questioned when I watched a programme.

You don't have to lecture me on the lethalness of MH. My cousin killed committed suicide after a psychotic episode.

Nor do you have to lecture me on the lethal Ness of cancer. It is killing me.

Bubbles I am sorry. But it isn't minty's fault.

Bubbles I am sorry. But it isn't minty's fault.

I have not said it is and I hope Minty gets well*

It is others twisting my words that upsets me.

Our doctors usually set aside a certain number of emergency appointments per day but like op impossible to get through on phone first thing in the morning so if I want an emergency appointment I go down there about 15 minutes before surgery opens and wait outside then go in and ask for an emergency appointment for that day ( I am not the only one waiting usually) not an ideal situation but I usually get in by doing this

They used to be called "urgent" appointments rather than "emergency". I wonder if they changed the name to try to put people off asking for them. However, it seems strange to have the same name "emergency" for a same-day doctor's appointment as an immediate trip to A&E.

'Yes - they ARE comparable. I will reiterate, they both cause tremendous suffering, horrific pain and can both ultimately result in death. Therefore, they ARE comparable.'

To YOU. In YOUR opinion.

'It is not gracious nor caring nor empathetic nor kind to entirely dismiss one illness (equally as lethal) as being 'less than' another.'

And NO ONE has done that.

But carrying on scolding.

This thread is so awful, I honestly don't think I've read much worse in almost 13 years on mnet.

I don't think cancer or mental health problems cancel each other out, the two are not mutually exclusive, both are horrific.

Bubbles and expat amongst others suffering on here

With all due respect snowy, this thread is about Minty, trying desperately to access help. It is not a thread about Bubbles nor expat.
I can not envisage any situation where a thread started by a cancer sufferer would receive such venom and lack of understanding.
It is an appalling thread. An appalling reflection of why mental illness is still taboo. And an appalling endorsement of the stigma associated with it.

I can not envisage any situation where a thread started by a cancer sufferer would receive such venom and lack of understanding.

Tbf the way you jumped down Bubbles throat when she had already explained how ill she is didn't exactly show much understanding or respect.

OP hope you feel better soon.

I can not envisage any situation where a thread started by a cancer sufferer would receive such venom and lack of understanding

It might, if the OP posted in AIBU and ended her post by blaming her inability to be given an appointment on

elderly people who are there several times a week with bunions and in growing toe nails (we all know the sort) clogging it up whilst people who are really unwel can't get seen

And then repeated the ageist mean jibes, and refused to retract or apologise.