I am so ready to end my relationship and just don't know what to do.
DP is just ridiculously last, selfish, irresponsible and I can't cope anymore. We've had issues over and over and millions of false promises that never last and I'm starting to feel like it's got to the end of the line.
I have told DP how I felt a few days ago, I'm a full time student and she is a SAHM. I've recently failed a test due to having no revision time as there is always something that needs doing.
The kids miss medical appointments left, right and centre and end up being kicked off, childcare fees haven't been paid in 3 months because she forgot so that's a huge bill before Xmas, I had to get Christmas presents as she hadn't done any shopping at all, it's just constant.
At the same time I'm desperately trying to catch up on my uni work, complete my almost due assignments and actually pass this course! I started this to give us a future as its vocational and leads to a job. Preciously we were both long term unemployed. I need to pass this course to give the kids a decent future.
She says she's supportive but then doesn't realise I have to pick up the slack constantly for what she doesn't do and that's massively affecting my ability to study.
She is a SAHM by choice as she doesn't want to work (never really has) and has 3 children. 2 are in their teens and make their own way to school and back and 1 is a toddler who goes nursery 3 days a week. That gives her 3 full days child free and as the older children see their dad another 3 days a week with just one child to deal with. It isn't like she's being asked to do a lot.
She seemed to understand this when we spoke last week and we've had a lovely few days. Today has been final straw for me though.
I said I was working all day Monday and Tuesday, which means sat in my room distraction free to get my assignments done. That was all fine. Tuesday she decides to go shopping, also fine little one is in nursery.
But then she forgot to order the shopping delivery so we have no food at all, haven't been able to eat all day. I'll go when I get back she says, fine.
5pm comes and little one needs collecting from nursery so I have to stop working and do that. They decided to go for food after shopping. Then tea needs sorting and usual tidying up etc. Bedtime comes around and I have that to sort, youngest sobbing because mummy isn't here and she wants to show her the present Santa gave her today.
At least then I can get back to work now kids are in bed. She finally swans in at half 9 wondering why I'm so annoyed. I told her I needed to work, she knows I'm failing, she knows how important this is and yet she didn't think to get back and take over child duties so I could work as planned. She didn't even need to go shopping she just got dragged along and normally hates shopping ffs!
I'm literally ready to end it. I can't do this course with her living her and nothing's ever going to change. If something doesn't matter to her then she forgets it or ignores it. Feeling so hurt and angry.