To miss smoking a little bit

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Used to smoke before getting pregnant with DD1, after she stopped bf I enjoyed the occasional drunk cigarette or the odd one when feeling stressed, never in the house or around her. As much as I know it reeks and is an awful habit, every now and then I really bloody miss smoking, especially nights like tonight because before kids I used to smoke more at night time and when I couldn't sleep. I know IABU but I'm not the only one to miss it a little bit right?!

I didn't put any weight on.
I don't feel any better though, think that's a bit of a myth!
Money was never enough of an incentive for me to stop

17th February 2012 was the last time I smoked. I have dreams about it simetimes :(

I miss the idea of it more that the reality I think. I haven't smoked for years, but I often think back fondly to when I did.

The thing is, if I had one now it would taste gross, it would make me lightheaded, I would be able to smell it and I would feel it on my chest the next day.

The thing is with smoking is that you have to persevere through the first few crap ones til you get used to it. Then you hit the good stuff.

I still fantasise about sitting outside on a warm evening with a lovely glass of wine and a cigarette though. If there's a nicer feeling in the world, I've yet to discover it.

I gave up smoking 15 years ago but missed it until I started vaping a couple of months ago. I use next to no nicotine but really enjoy the hand-to-mouth thing, especially when we're out socialising as I'm a bit of an introvert and can feel awkward sometimes. I'm also one of the MN Vaping Vipers .

I smoked 20 a day until 8 years ago when after multiple attempts I quit. I miss cigs sometimes it's true. Especially when I'm out walking and I basically just want to have an excuse to sit on a rock and admire the view. Maybe in a month I spend a whole minute in total missing cigs but my life used to be ruled by them. Where can I smoke? When don't get another? How many will I let myself have today? I've got two children now (5 &2) and to be honest I can't imagine how I'd manage to smoke if I took it up again (and I know that for me personally there's no such thing as just one). I mean where can you smoke these days without being made to feel awful? So yeah I miss it a bit but I'm so so so so relieved I quit.

moonshineonthegarden I think that the reason my last quit attempt worked was because I was so fed up of being ruled by them. Always worrying when I would be able to have my next one, when I would get to a shop, how many I had left. It got to a point where it was taking up too much of my brain space. I would leave places early so I could have a cigarette, be preoccupied in meetings, hide away for secret ones.

Now I have rose tinted glasses, but would never go back.

I quit just over a year ago when I found out I was pregnant with DD and I missed it throughout my pregnancy, despite knowing how bad it was I craved one so badly, in decemeber a friend of mine committed suicide and I had a solitary cigarette at her funeral in memory of her(we used to take our cigarette breaks together at work). I then started vaping on next to no nicotine as that one triggered something in my head but I wouldn't smoke whilst pregnant.
Since I had DD in April I have been out drinking 4 times and on each occasion I have bought 10 cigarettes, smoked what I wanted then given whatever was left in the packet away (ranged from 7 to 1!) to a friend. I go back to vaping the next day.

However I miss it lots and count down the days to my next night out! I wouldn't feel comfortable smoking around my daughter or even when I'm going to be seeing her shortly as I know the effects of third hand smoke etc.

You are definitely NBU to miss smoking. especially in the garden in the sun with a nice glass of something alcoholic

Oh yes OP. 17 years fag-free here and I still get that feeling, even though I know one of the main reasons I gave up was because I felt disgusting and ill and didn't want to smell, so I know if I started again I wouldn't like it.

The worst for me is outdoor situations like festivals, on the beach or the ultimate killer, waiting for a train on a station platform (outdoor ones where you can smoke that is). When I see someone else there light up I feel really jealous – not so much of the smoke in my lungs aspect, but the ritual, the moment of having that little treat.

But having given up is a big achievement that we should be proud of, and not let go of. To those who have recently given up, well done and hang in there.

I gave up over 10 years ago, and still miss it sometimes. I dream about smoking occasionally, and I like the smell of someone smoking in the street (though definitely not the smell of stale smoke). If I was one of those people who could smoke now and again without being addicted then I would, but I'm not, so I wouldn't risk even one fag.

I quit 3 years ago but still use my E-cig constantly

I much prefer the e-cig thankfully and you couldn't pay me to smoke a fag (well I might be tempted for a grand) but there has been moments where I have seen someone lighting up after a meal and I remember how lovely it is to smoke after a big meal.

My dh quit a year ago and uses an E cig but he really misses smoking. It is a constant struggle for him. I can't believe he has managed this long because he really does obsess about smoking still.

I smoked 40 a day and have quit a few times. I know I have done it for good this time though. My turning point was developing health anxiety and having a panic attack every time I lit up thinking this might be the one to trigger cancer. It is much easier to quit when you are petrified of smoking ;)

I gave up when I found out I was pregnant (5 months ago now). I agree with the pp who said there is no nicer feeling than a glass of wine and a cig on a sunny evening. I do miss it, I also don't feel any better for stopping, and although I noticed the money at first it quickly ends up being spent on other things. I miss the social aspect of it and the way it breaks up an evening.

However, I don't miss that panic about whether I'll have enough to last me the evening, having to go to the shop on a night out to get fags, that horrible taste in your mouth the morning after a heavy night, having to go outside for a cig in the pouring rain or freezing cold, and I do feel better that I'm not going to be smoking when the baby arrives. I don't like the thought of them coming into a house where my clothes smell of smoke, or having a cig in a playground when I take them out for the day etc etc.

I really hope I'll stick to it when I start drinking again because I don't think I could ever be one of those people who just smokes on a night out and then nothing for months. If I start again I'll be back on it properly within days. They are so delicious.

Pepperpot asked if anyone put on weight when they gave up.
I did, I put on a ton of weight which took me years to lose.
I can't put that all down to quitting though. I did find it easier to lose weight when I smoked though.
I'm actually still overweight but I'm also pretty fit for my age (55). I suspect I may have died by now if I hadn't quit, or at least be suffering some serious consequences.

Strange to see this post. I have started craving cigarettes after quitting 20 years ago!
I ha no idea why? I even started smoking my biro yesterday - inhaling strongly.

'The thing is with smoking is that you have to persevere through the first few crap ones til you get used to it. Then you hit the good stuff

Oh my god, this is so true. I've never understood why people say it's a filthy habit - cigarettes are heavenly, especially in the right situation, like other posters have described (sunshine, alcohol, outdoors). Push through the light headedness and nausea of the first few, and it really does get so good

Still glad I gave up but man, they're special

lotta agree with all of that. I think for some of us it's a true addiction, same as being an alcoholic or an ex heroin addict. It's always there, deep down inside.
I am very thankful for the smoking ban, because I'm not sure if I could have resisted if people were still smoking around me, in restaurants, buses and shopping malls. I can remember when all those things were normal.

I still smoke. I have every intention of giving up when I choose to but I never thought I'd miss it. I know it's not easy but is it like a craving that you just don't give in to?

Yummy. Silk cut with a cup of tea.
Marlboro lights on a night out!

Strong coffee is the only thing that does - slightly - for me what a cigarette used to. It's kind of disgusting in a way, yet so right and you can feel it doing something to your brain.

I didn't gain weight, though I'm a bit heavier now after 2 DC, I didn't pile it on at the time.

Box, no it's not a craving for me, just a wistful feeling "oh they are having a fag. I would LOVE to be having a fag." But not all the time, only when I see someone having one in a situation where I would like to. I don't feel it in pubs, for example.

I've smoked for 15 years, quit (mostly, I did have the odd one :() when pregnant then went back to it on and off after 2 deaths in the family meant being with chainsmokers. I'm using an ecig now and trying not to worry about being addicted to nicotine at the moment, its better than fags.

on reading the title I was going to post how absolutely no way do I miss smoking but having read some of these happy memories you all have I am starting to feel nostalgic for my smoking days. smoked on and off for 15 yrs til 5 yrs ago (ttc) haven't touched on since. I too like that first lit smell but hate the after stench. also used to hate how it dominated my life, always thinking about my next fag break, the cost is extortionate, you have to go out of the pub and miss the chat and stand billy no mates cos no one smokes anymore, yellow fingers and nails, every cough and cold turned into a chest infection, mil died of lung cancer having not seen us marry and never met dd and ds, truly heartbreaking. actually I've just got over the craving. quitting is the best thing I ever did.

Funny story. I stopped with my Husband two years ago, but sometimes lots of times recentlyI have the odd one. Anyway, went outside the other night to the back garden for a crafty one and he locked the back door! Had to sheepishly knock on the window for him to let me in

I miss smoking. I'm pregnant at the moment so some of my extremely vivid dreams include smoking.

I'm hoping after this baby I won't go back to it - I don't want her to be around it and I don't want to ruin my skin!

I gave up 10 years ago and would dearly love a fag. There's really nothing like it. I still have to have chocolate after every single meal as a substitute.

My dad smoked for a year aged 18. He's 63 now and says he could quite easily light up again now.

It's not even the nicotine, I think it's, like PPs have mentioned, that five minutes outside doing nothing else, the memories associated to it, etc.