to ask if you have had a miscarriage what you did....... (could be upsetting sorry)

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I don't mean to upset or offend anyone but am after some advice.

I had a miscarriage at home last week and caught the pregnancy sac and contents in a tiny pot as I wasn't sure if i wanted to see it or not. (got the pot advice from one of the mc threads on mumsnet)

I don't know what to do with it now :(

I don't want to flush it down the loo but I don't want to keep it either.
I don't even know if i want to look at it in detail. I am a bit freaked by what I might see, but i sort of feel i "should" have a look in case i can see the tiny foetus.

I know I could take it up to the hospital for them to cremate it but it all seems so impersonal as I imagine it being chucked in a "babywaste" bin :(

I read somewhere that some people suggested burying it... i am terrified a cat might dig it up or something.

I sort of wish I'd just flushed at the time but was so full of emotion.

I'm sorry if this is a bit of a weird thing to post... I think I have over-thought it!

I had one at home when I was 16, i looked at it, I knew what it was but was too immature to register it in my mind. I wrapped it in tissue and flushed it.

I dreamed about it for a long time afterwards, I'm 24 now and still think about it and when asked by the hospital or doctor if I have ever had a MC I say no because I don't want them to know what I did with it.

Some of these stories have moved me to tears

We put the sac into a little plastic bag and then into a small box, which we put in the bottom of a deep plant pot. The original shrub died long ago (I have the complete opposite of green fingers!) and so I just replace the shrub as I need to.
The plant pot came with us when we moved house and is at the front of our house. I found it very comforting in the immediate months after we lost the baby to be sble to say a little "hello" whenever I walked past it. That was 12 years ago now, but it was a very sad time for us. I really feel for you - it's just awful