to cry hysterically at soft play

[maxxytoe]

It is my sons first birthday
I am so emotional that I'm crying hysterically in the toilets
I don't want him to grow up
Is this normal ?!
The other parents think I'm losing the plot !

[maxxytoe]

Thank you everyone
I literally have zero friends so everyone's kind messages and advice is really helpful
I reckon that could be part of it too as it's just me and my baby all day everyday until my partner gets home

[SDTGisAnEvilWolefGenius]

PND is horrible - I had it three times (secondary to clinical depression) - but it does lift.

According to a researcher in this area - Dr Katherina Dalton - who I heard speak, keeping your blood sugar at a sensible level and not letting it dip can help - so small, starchy, carb snacks through the day - soon after getting up, and at least 3-hourly, and no more than an hour before bed. Not lots of extra calories - spread out your normal carbs through the day.

And remember, you have got so many wonderful things to look forward to, as your son grows up. So much happiness to come, and so many wonderful memories to make.

{{{hugs}}}

[NotCitrus]

The first year was so much the hardest. I cried rather a lot at ds's first birthday, and dd's, but they got so much more interesting and rewarding after that.

Congratulations on getting you and your baby through a whole year, and look forward to being able to communicate with them and do so many exciting things.

[CloserToFiftyThanTwenty]

Soft play is enough to drive many of us to tears, granted...

[FriendofBill]

Get thee to playgroups!
I found sure start ones were good as they had specific activities on.
Use your local groups.
And keep going back.
Even if you get a name as 'the quiet one' keep going!

[GloGirl]

Good God woman, go to groups, mingle, find some Mummy friends, book playdates and realise you are not alone

Just the two of you every day is very lonely.

I sobbed like a baby on my son's first birthday because I missed my baby. But you did it! You survived the first year and you are brilliant

[DoJo]

I second going to playgroups to help you get a bit of structure into your day and prevent you from dwelling on your emotions and memories. Even if you only talk to the play leader, you can have a nice chat with someone who can answer back (and who is guaranteed to tell you how adorable your son is!). It really can be a lifesaver if you are otherwise on your own.

[chickenfuckingpox]

every single one of my childrens first birthdays have been ruined all three of them dd her dad disappeared for hours (four hours actually) came back and got pissed at the party humiliated me in front of my family (we split before her second birthday) ds1 nanny decided she was buying him a cake (im gluten intolerant and couldn't eat my own sons birthday cake) she then proceeded to criticize our house the lack of heat (she kept her coat on) the area we lived in his "lack" of gifts (seriously he had tons) how poor it was he was being raised so far away (10 miles) from his nanny who loved him soooooo much (who had only visited once in six months) caused a family ruckus and we didnt see her for another six ds2 popped over to his great nanny's on his first birthday his granddad showed up obviously forgot it was his grandsons birthday and his actual name he then caused an argument with his brother and had a punch up in-front of the boys and H ended up removing him from the house and hitting him they all spent half the night at the police station granddad ended up with an adult caution and has never seen the grandchildren since but he and his wife have caused no end of havoc since then to the point where i might have to move house to end the harassment

enjoy your day!!!

[JustHavinABreak]

You poor darling. Just sent you a PM rather than share something personal here but sending you lots of hugs too