To cry when I hold my sleeping child because I love them so much?

[Bellaboosmum1]

Sometimes when I'm holding my sleeping child, I hold them so tight and think about how much I love them and I end up weeping. Am I alone?

Can't say I've ever done that to be honest..

Dd was so poorly when born we thought she'd never survive.
I used to hold her and sing twinkle twinkle so that if she died at least she'd have been happy (crying now) I still can't sing it without crying.
She's a gorgeous four year old now, I'm so so thankful

My last baby starts preschool on Monday and today we walked past a charity shop and he asked if he could have the pretty bag in the window for all his big boy things he needs for school. I gulped a bit, blinked and tried to form some words to answer him. For years it's been first things which made me wobble. First tooth, first steps, first word. Now it's last full day with him, last toddler group visit, last breastfeed, last mispronounced word. There are bits of parenting I'll never do again and I ache when I think about it. It'll be my grandchildren next time I nuzzle a tiny newborn head or rock to sleep a baby who is mine iyswim. I watched my parents and my inlaws cry when they cuddled my babies and knew then that they were cuddling their own babies too. My MIL says all the time that she never knew she'd love a baby that instinctively and completely again.

Sometimes it does just hit you. I'm hard as nails, never cry but the odd moment with my children makes me crumple

Of course not OP. It's lovely and very sweet of you. They grow up quick, believe me!

Oh yes, me too. I can't sleep at night without having first checked (and watched) my two sleeping.

What really gets me (and makes my tummy turn in a nice way) is when I see DS1 (now 12) holding his favourite bear in his sleep, they've been best friends for the last 10 years

Since having children, I also can't watch any tv that involves them being in trouble in any way without crying or wanting to turn over. Particularly if the child in trouble is a boy (as I have both boys) ... ghastly. Everyone teases me ...

If always feel especially mushy when I look at photos of my DC asleep. There's one of the youngest when she was very little, sprawled face-down in her cot with the soles of her bare feet turned to the camera.

Turns me to putty.

Did it loads with DC1, with DC2 it's tears of happiness that she is finally asleep

Sob! Don't want my baby to grow up!

Shockers I love your story, I'm so happy he stayed with you. You made me all teary.

Completely normal to cry about this, it's mostly when I go to check on them while they're sleeping, they give me a cuddle or say something really lovely to me. Watching DS sleep while snoring like a wilderbeast and I think wow, we made that and isn't he beautiful. Also when I catch him singing, I love that little dude!

Another thing that always gets me though is when DD gives me a huge snuggle and I can't believe how much I love her and how we couldn't be without her yet she was conceived after a MMC when I should still have been pregnant so technically she shouldn't even exist and I think wow, we couldn't live without you and yet here you are, perfect and beautiful. I feel like I'm snuggling her and our lost baby at the same time.

One of my favourite quotes is
"Making the decision to have a child - it is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."

GaryBaldy - DS is a big hairy grunting thing locked away revising in his room, he speaks mainly to request food and taxi service mainly but still has a big hug when he comes in from school (of which he only has four more days to attend for exams sob!)

I loved this. I would be the happiest woman ever if mine is the same when he's that age. He's only 1!

I'm glad I'm not the only one! I was even worse the other day when I looked at my phone to see DS (age 7) had put a reminder on my phone for after he'd gone to school which simply said "LOVE YOU SO MUCH MUM" I bawled!

Ledkr that made me cry!
DD should have been a twin but we lost one baby early in the pregnancy. I think of her lost twin whenever I hear twinkle twinkle and think of our "little star" ever since DS mentioned that the baby is now a star in heaven

Sorry meant to use speech marks not bold writing

OP, I have tears in my eyes reading this thread!! I did this with my DD last night, it's been a huge shock to me how much love I have for her and how beautiful/perfect she is.

I have wept through much of this thread too. Good tears though!

However we come by them (I have 2 others, one born to me, one more adopted), they are such a blessing!

I've spent the afternoon with the aforementioned Bigfoot at our local pool and spa... mostly with his big toe up my nose in the hot tub .

I have never done this tbh. I do love DS a bit more when he is asleep, though ;)

What a lovely thread.

Mine are young adults now, but I can still get emotional when I think about how much I love them & what wonderful young men they have grown up to be especially after a glass or two of wine

YANBU. I do this. And when she does something funny/clever/cute.

I'm reading this sobbing. I have my newborn baby here (days old) and need some reassurance please ladies.

These feelings the OP and others have posted about, wanting to cry (wail) with love, I am having them to the point where it's overwhelming and I then start to cry generally about having had my baby after all this time and loss. Is this the baby blues or something else?

Totally normal here, although I did cry when my dog tried on a bowtie I had bought him because he looked so cute. So yeah, maybe don’t go by my standards/reactions 🤣

I can be really cross about their behaviour. Then 15 mins later be in tears as I’ve gone in to their room and seen then fast asleep and completely beautiful. Crazy.

I love this thread!
Yes regularly tearfully hug my baby but have to reach up to do it. He’s 22 and left home 2 years ago. I have to stop myself bawling with pride. After years in the wilderness when he didn’t want hugs cos they were stupid and embarrassing, we’re back in huggin’ territory. Hurray!

DD13 just came home from school in a strop because her bag was too heavy. I hollered "My precious darling!", flung myself at her and gave her a big squeezy-hug. She grunted but I don't think she minded. Babies love to be loved.

To be fair no I didn’t ever do that, but does anyone remember the John Lewis advert with the little ballerina ? Well it properly reminds me of my daughter at that age, as she was a little chubby thing in a tutu as well, and now I can’t hear that song and not get all weepy ans nostalgic, which always makes her come over all awkward now, as she’s 24. 😂😂😂

I do that all the time. My kids are 7, 5 and 3.