Ok, so we are pretty young - in my eyes anyway - at 23 and 24, to get married. Not sure we're 'There' yet you know? But I do dream of our big day and have loads of ideas and stuff and he knows all that. He always said that he wasn't ready yet which is fine as we're young, and that he may change his mind as he gets older. (He see's it as a bit expensive and considering we don't own our own home yet its not top of priorities - which I agree with)
AND I did say don't propose until i'm at my goal weight - which ISNT happening as of yet.... :(
But now his bestest friend in the whole world is proposing to his GF of 2 years (We've been together 6). He used to be a bit of a 'LAD' so just never saw him beating us to it....
Was absolutely chuffed of course, its super exciting and we all love his GF and they are perfect together blah blah...
BUT, I cant help but feel a little sad.... Not sure if its Jealousy, as I'm genuinely happy for them. But just a little sad its not us, and sad that we're not 'There' yet.... Every things going in slow mo for us - I still don't have a 'Proper' job so cant really save for our house. Stuck renting and STILL haven't got any closer to this bloody goal weight of mine...
I had a flicker of a thought, that what if, it isn't meant to be....
That might be what made me sad...
Can you be utterly in love with someone, and want to spend the rest of your lives together but life just isn't on your side somehow?
Someone please reassure me......???