OCD Chemicals + Baby - Help please?

[rosekelly28]

I had no idea where to put this so I apologise that it's not really an AIBU.

I've been worrying myself sick and can't find any answers so I'm hoping someone here can help me (I have severe OCD which might help explain my reaction to what happened).

A couple of nights ago I stupidly left a plastic washing up basin on top of my gas oven. I then proceeded to cook dinner and the heat coming out of the vent at the back of the oven melted a hole in the bowl and subsequently the melted plastic dripped onto the stove and unfortunately down the vent. The plastic had only just melted and hadn't reached bubbling or burning stage. There were no smell/fumes and no smoke but I'm unbelievably worried about my 7 month old DD's health and I'm concerned that she may have breathed some toxins in. Is it possible for fumes to be released from melted NOT burned plastic even if there's no smell or smoke? Would I know if there was? I have a sore throat which I've convinced myself is related but I'm not sure but all I care about is my DD.

I'm also worried about how the person coming out will fix the oven, I really don't want him using chemicals to clean the vents and will completely freak out if he sprays anything etc. I'm dreading him coming but I know it needs to be fixed.

I've gotten rid of everything on the worktops around the oven because I'm worried harmful toxins may have settled on stuff, including an expensive steamer/blender that I use to make baby food. I'm so worried and don't feel safe in the house anymore.

Am I overreacting? What would you do in this situation?

You are young and you have been through a lot in a short time. It's not surprising really that the ocd has flared up at this time in your life. Really you have already done a lot in understanding yourself so well.
You can get over this. It's not a question of just being strong and living with it. Resisting the compulsions really does make them a lot weaker. The turning point for me was before I named the problem when someone who understood advised me to go to the Buddhist centre in london and meditate. I am not a Buddhist, but I was desperate and it always helps, because the idea is to notice and accept your thought as just thoughts bit not to resist them.
As you say your ex us a good guy, and if you want to get back with him , I think it us a really god idea that you have 'plan'with him that he must not get drawn in to your worries and habits.
Maybe you can have the same with your dad.
Also give yourself a break and don't feel guilty about this condition-there is no point. Have a bit of compassion for yourself as well as your family.

hi rosekelly id like to introduce myself i have ocd im constantly worrying about germs i have 3children 5 3 and 1 i struggle daily like you if i go out i have a bath when i get back indoors mine is a clean issue/germs it kicked in about 2 months after my 1st was born i found out that stress had triggered it and it got worse over time to this day ive been back and forth to the doctors who just tell me i need to teach myself to break the habbit face the fear but truth is i still cant its certainly not an illness doctors can do alot with i wish you the best of luck and hope you manage to overcome it 1 day i hope i can too