To ask you to talk me out of having another baby

[CountryMummy1]

DH and I have 2 children. Very difficult road to get there with infertility and 6 miscarriages. We know we are very lucky to have 2 healthy children and agreed that we would count our blessings and stop.

However....my sister has just announced her pregnancy and I have had a desperate feeling of sadness that I'll never be pregnant again. It's completely barmy as I had severe hyperemesis throughout both pregnancies and was in and out of hospital on strong medication. With my last pregnancy I had awful SPD to the point I was on crutches and I know it would be worse next time. Both labours were difficult, babies got stuck, heart rates dropped and they were both pulled out with last ditch attempt forceps just before they were going to do a CS. It was all very scary.

Both babies had milk intolerance and severe reflux to the point of hospitalisation and me almost crazy with sleep deprivation and PND.

My DDS is just 3 now and a delight. She's so easy. My DS is harder work but Still fairly easy at 11 months. Both sleep through and still nap. I am just starting to think about getting a life for me back.

We have saved carefully over the years to afford to send them both to private school and for me to be a SAHM. This would all have to change with a 3rd.

Yet...I feel the urge. Tell me I'm barmy please!!!!!

I like what a pp said about the baby stage being a fleeting thing. Might get that tattooed on my forehead actually. Ds has been exceptionally horrendous today. "Terrible twos" doesn't even cover it. I'm sitting in a hotel bathroom hiding from my children because I've been up since 3am and pretty much had non stop shouting, screeching, chasing him, stopping him from running in the road, mess, spillages, more shouting and just the general overwhelming feeling of failure that it doesn't matter what I try I CANNOT control him or in any way manage his behaviour. He was a lovely baby though

Glad to hear that you're feeling more settled. :) However cute they are when they're little, it's lovely when they're older and you can do stuff as a family like art galleries and museums and actually have proper interesting conversations with them. Every age has it's compensations.