Hi OP. I havent read all the replies, but just wanted to add my support and say please dont cancel.
Talk to the doctor. Tell them you are feeling nervous. Many women find the idea of a smear test embarrassing, awkward, frightening etc. Health professionals are used to it.
Smear tests are very quick and usually only mildly uncomfortable, and the chances are that you will be absolutely fine. You KNOW this is a very important way of taking care of your health, so try to talk through your fears with your doctor and face this head on. It could be a life saver.
There are also some great charities (Jo's Trust is one) who can talk to you about how to approach a smear if you are feeling nervous. But its too important to just bury your head in the sand.
I'm feeling very sad right now, as an old friend is dying of cervical cancer. She is 36 and a mother of three and hasnt got long left. Her cancer was a very slow growing type of cancer which if it had been caught at any stage really in the last few years, might have been cured. But she never had a smear and so it wasnt picked up until it had spread to her lungs and liver
. She had been sexually abused as a child and felt unable to face a smear test or to talk to anyone about her fears. It breaks my heart. If she had just told someone...there are ways around these things...she could have received support.
Good luck, be open about how you feel and be strong x