I had my first smear test at the age of 25 and it came back with severe cell change, CIN 3. A few weeks later, I went for a colposcopy, which was carried out by a female consultant who was very gentle with me and took a biopsy. Obviously, it wasn't a pleasant experience but I felt fine after and she was very understanding.
I was asked to attend for another colposcopy to have the CIN removed, this time with a male consultant. It couldn't have been more different to my previous experience. From the moment he put the clamp inside me, I felt this awful searing pain. He was quite careless when carrying out internal procedures and I just remember him roughly shoving loads of medical gauze inside of me, then putting his whole fist up there to pull it out, completely blood soaked. It was horrible and I was in pain the whole way through.
I burst into tears as soon as I climbed off of the chair. The nurses were lovely but he was completely uncaring, just said "oh, it's just because she's relieved it's over" while standing in the corner changing his gloves, not even looking at me. I was actually crying out of pain and distress. It took me a while to stop thinking about it and I was bleeding for 9 weeks after. This emotional reaction isn't normal for me. I have a high pain threshold and have never felt so awful after an internal examination before.
A letter came through this week asking me to attend another colposcopy for a 6 month check up - with the same male consultant. I don't want him anywhere near me again because he hurt me so much and was very rough.
AIBU if I phone up and request the female consultant I saw before, even though the male one seems to be handling my case and all correspondence is from him?