You may have seen previous posts where I have asked for advice on post-birth problems. Well this is still ongoing, 5 months after giving birth and I am still waiting on a gynae appointment, I have also been diagnosed with post natal depression.
My DP works full time in a fairly stressful role. After work he has a couple of pints to destress before coming home, which means I have been looking after DD from approx 7am until 730pm on my own, whilst being in quite considerable pain, looking after the house, cooking dinner etc and generally feeling like I never get 5 minutes to rest. DP will come home, expect dinner, watch his tv programs and if DD cried and needs changed, fed, put to sleep it's just assumed I should be the one to do it.
DP has a child from a previous relationship which I dote on and so whatever I can to make her feel apart of the family when we have her.
I never go out and on the rare occasions I have (twice since DD born) I am made to feel guilty.
He went to the pub on fri evening, came home and fell asleep. Yesterday he was there for 4 hours, came home in a disgustingly grumpy mood which resulted in a massive fall out and me and DD staying away for the night.
Now I am being made to feel guilty for walking out, for being 'sad' and struggling to cope.
Am I being unreasonable to expect a little help in the evenings or weekends or when I became a mother should I have accepted that I would have no time to myself and really I should just be getting on with things?
I think I want to leave but I am torn by the guilt of taking his daughter away from him.