to want to crawl into bed, in the dark and stay there for ever ??

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Dd2 (13) took an overdose again on sunday afternoon. Six paracetamol this time. No idea where she got them from, as we have a locked cabinet for meds and sharps.

She was kept in hospital overnight, seen by emergency cahms on mon morning, and then discharged home, and saw our own camhs team on the afternoon.

People keep asking me what help she is getting and I don't know what to say. She see's camhs weekly, but no, things, don't appear to be getting anywhere.
She also self harms by cutting her arms and legs, and doesn't eat properly.

Her last overdose before this was about 4 weeks ago. Afterwards my doc signed me off work for 2 weeks with stress. I am already on anti depressants myself. After the 2 weeks he signed me off again, for a further 2 weeks.
Work have threatened me with the sack. I am back in tomorrow and am dreading the frosty atmosphere.
People keep telling me to hand in my notice, but i#m a lone parent, so it's stay in this job or sign on, which I couldn't even do if I walked from my job anyway.

So, hiding in my bed seems like a very reasonable option to me atm. Obviously i won;t do it lol. I have to go collect dd's meds soon, then fetch ds, and then take dd1 to a careers show. The thought is nice though lol.

I hope you both find the right meds and help as possible! did the hospital think her suicide attempts were genuine? i only ask because at 17 I took 80 paracetamol before school because I had a headache. I took two then just kept swallowing them. I was a bit depressed over a bad break up and an a level my step father forced me to study that I hated, but I didn't really mean to kill myself. I was wondering how serious 6 paracetamol could be as I thought 8 was the minimum to be fatal? Maybe this was more a cry for help like mine?

i was given 6 weeks of counselling and antidepressants. I didn't find either effective - the only thing that helped was the removal of the two stressful situations - I dropped the bad a level and the ex boyfriend was removed from my life. are there any issues like that for your daughter which you can remove? new school?

have not read all replies but this was my daughter at 13/15, she had cahms, mentors at school, and other help, all i can say is hang in there, hopefully it will get better, my DD is 17 now at college and loving it and is basically a joy to be around, although the school were really supportive in a way i wish i had just taken her out of there, she was known as the cjild with issues, but they were her issues which she had to work through herself, its hard but when i realised i couldn't make her stop self harming and locking up all the meds was pointless, it got a bit better for us.

Well, I went to work yesterday, but quit this morning. I just cannot cope with that and everything else right now. I can get signed off for my 2 week notoce period and then a friend has suggested I apply for ESA instead of JSA, so we'll see.

Anyway, less about me. Dd has only ever been offered camhs, no other counselling. Advice on here a while back reccomended CBT, but it's not something I can afford privately.
I don't think she did intend to kill herself either time she took tablets tbh. She takes them because she feels she can't cope, but then won't explain why, or what she can't cope with.

I did look into moving her to a new school a while ago, but she wasn't sure it would help so we left it. Ideally she'd like to me to home ed, but i think would isolate her more and she is already very isolated as it is.

Oh and those who mentioned xp. It pains me to think I had 3 kids with the bloke tbh. He has got more and more selfish the older he has got. Thankfully I don't live right by him anymore, so don't have him constantly in my face, but if ever I do need to ask for help he never fails to make the situation all about how hard his life is.
He will end up a very lonely man and it will be his own doing.

It is fab btw to read of people having been through similar and their dd's have come out the other side

I can only hope that the same happens for my dd. She is such a beautiful, caring, clever girl, and I so want her to be better.

OP, I looked on your profile stalker and you're not in the same area as me, but, to give you an idea, there are youth counselling agencies in my area that offer contribution-only counselling for longer periods than you'd get via CBT from the GP referral. Might be worth a google?

Psycotherapy training places offer cheap therapy too.

Perhaps she wants to be home ed because she just can't cope with other people at the moment?

Sorry to hear you're going through this, I have only little advice, but I started self harming and attempting suicide from 13, I was referred to a psychiatrist, didn't help that much as at that age it's impossible to put into words what or why you're feeling the way you do...I'm 33 now, a few minor scars but very happy and glad I never did achieve what I set out to do.

Stick by her, support her, take all the help you can, but until she's older, her problems will be near impossible to unravel due to age and comprehension and just putting it into words that mean something

Speak to your GP rather than go through CAMHS and you might be able to get your DD some CBT then. It does help. I can speak from experience.

Please don't be freaked by this, but my partner talked about suicide and attempted suicide several times before actually doing it. Sometimes it is a cry for help, sometimes it isn't - it is them trying to find the strength to go through with it. The worst thing that anyone can do is to not take it seriously as an attempt to end their life....although, saying that, I also know (unfortunately too late for me) that when they stop talking about it - that's when they are serious. Please understand that I am telling you this to help you, not to worry you.

And please remember that you are important too and I understand how difficult it must be for you - especially now that you have given up work, but, FWIW you have done the right thing - for both of you. Work will still be there when your DD is feeling stronger. But right now...she needs her mum and you don't need that shit in your life.

I know that you may feel in a long dark tunnel - but one day the sun will shine again - for you both. xxxxx

Morning all. Not a great start to the day today, ebay have frozen my account cos i've not paid my fees. I know it is my own fault but just really don't need it right now.

Dd is ok, well as far as I can tell, and I never can tell tbh. I know she gets more down when she has nothing to do, so am wracking my brains trying to think of something to do with her today.