to really hate this couple?

[Reality]

This is just a rant, really. They were in my dream last night so I've been stewing on it this morning.

I thought they were friends of ours, his wife was (I thought) my best friend but with hindsight they were just users, they used to come here for dinner and drinks almost every weekend and leave their DD here, for example, the favour was never returned.

When we were planning our wedding, they asked me if their DD could be a bridesmaid and if he could be our photographer (he isn't a professional, just a hobbyist), a few months down the line they said, oh as payment for being your photographer you can pay for our room at the hotel. I have no idea why I went along with this but I think I genuinely thought they had our best interests at heart and were doing us a favour. The room was about £250 I think, a family room for them and their DD. We also invited her parents (and paid for a meal etc) as they asked us to.

So, the wedding photos were predictably awful, we had a list of family shots we wanted and none of them happened, I have no photos of my sisters at my wedding, for example, and loads of photos of his wife and DD.

He spent a good ten minutes staging a shot that made it look like DH was snogging my mother (with the camera angle), and fucking PHOTOSHOPPED one of DH and my mum dancing to move DH's hand onto my mum's arse. These were the shots he was most proud of and plastered them all over Facebook.

We had to wait about six months for any copies of our photos, and he charged us a fortune for some framed shots, it's only now I work for a print company that I realise how much he ripped us off on those. We asked him literally every weekend for a good six months about the photos before he eventually gave us a disc with them on, and arranged the framed prints at the same time. He charged us £100 for each print, they were framed in plastic frames from Wilkos.

So as not to dripfeed, this is the man who broke into my house and assaulted me while I slept, a couple of years after the wedding. We obviously dont' see him any more and he was arrested for it although not charged. She hasn't spoken to me since and 'can't forgive me' for calling the police. She blanks me at school and Scouts although still has a cheery hello for DH.

So obviously I have that context to it. But I am fixating on the wedding stuff this morning. I am really fucking angry about it and need to have a big old AIBU rant.

They are cunts, aren't they? Or is it me?

[cjel]

Glad you will seek counselling and sorry you feel broken at the moment. Someone once said tome when I was feeling bad, that I was a bent reed that would never be broken. I think you are the same, you are bent but won't breakx

[KalevalaForMePlease]

Aw, Reality, what a terrible thing, they are dreadful people. The sense of injustice is really awful to have to deal with. My brain does this too, every now and again puts me in a conversation with people who have previously fucked me over. I like a pp's suggestion that it's because you're in a happier place that your brain thinks you're ready to deal with it, I'll remember that. for you, be reassured that we all think that they are a pair of vicious cunts who will get their comeuppance. As my granny would say, I wouldn't piss on them if they were on fire!

[ClaraOswald]

You were sexually assaulted and haven't yet had counselling? Especially with the lack of prosecution and all the change I'm not surprised you have been so unsettled and upset.

Well done on going to speak to your GP, it takes a lot to acknowledge you may need help and even more to ask for that help, especially if you are normally such a confident person.

[LeGavrOrf]

Oh I'm sorry I went off on one about your parents. I was projecting. I am glad that they have been more supportive than I supposed.

I would tell your mum though that you're still suffering though. I am so glad she was behind you when you reported it. She may think, because you come across as so strong and together (as you come across on here) that you have been able to put it behind you. Perhaps she doesn't want to bring it up and dredge it all up again.

Please do try and have some counselling. What happened was so vile, in your own home and in the middle of the night. And you still have to see this fucker because of scouts and everything.

Sorry again for being harsh about your mum and dad.

[LeGavrOrf]

Is your GP nice? Hopefully that will be a good first step. However counselling in general has a long waiting list. I am currently on one and in my area it's about 9 months. So I am going to go privately, it's about 30 quid a session, it's a good idea though to have your GP recommend decent counsellers who specialise in this area.

Or have you had any dealings with victim support? I only say this because my aunt is a victim support officer, works very closely with people who have had been assaulted etc. that would also be a good first port of call for other services I think.

[thebody]

I can't remember a more disturbing thread.

just awful. also this sex offender has a dd? very worrying.

your parents attitudes are awful too.

[Reality]

I just want to thank you all so much for all your lovely posts.

I've written the shit out of it and I think that will help. I am going to go and see my GP as well, when I can fit it in around work.

I am really bored of having it at the front of my brain now, I wish it would go away but it's not, so I;m just going to talk and write and rage it out until it does.

[loveolives]

Fucking fuckers!

[Youarejustwordsonascreenpeople]

Well done Reality. Don't let the bastard drag you down.

[FunkyBoldRibena]

Crikey - Reality your words are powerful things.

Only just read this as new to MN but feel sick with this.

He will be found out in the end. Someway. Somehow.

x

[Mumsyblouse]

reality I just wanted to say something in relation to why this has come up for you now- in my experience, if you are someone who copes well and managed to keep going last year, this time when everything is going better is the first time that you can really let it all out. I have often found that denial/repression is quite a good tactic for a while, but once you start dreaming about something, it's probably time to get it out and examine it for a bit before putting it back in its box (which is exactly what you are doing). I've often found that it's only when things are going really well that you can examine the darker stuff- hope you feel at least a bit better after getting upset over this.

And- you and they still know the truth, he's a nasty piece of work, and as others have said, his karma will come (and hers as I'm sure she knows what he is really like).

[Reality]

Thank you