I am feeling guilty, but not feeling like I am being completely U in this situation - perhaps you can tell me.
DH works in an office, he hates it, and I mean hates it. We have 2 DC, 5 and 4 and I am 25 weeks pregnant with DC3. I do freelance work at home. I am tired most of the time. Things like going to the park with the kids absolutely drains me.
In the holidays, my plan was to get up and work in the mornings before the kids wake up and then do about an hour while they are awake. And then do work in the evenings and at weekends. The only time I seem to be in a fit state to work is at the weekends. I go hell for leather at the weekends and then I am wiped out in the week.
DH is really worried about paying the mortgage off before it runs out, he doesn't want to work in the office with a passion and he had yet another strop today about how I don't to do a stroke of work in the week, and then he has to give up his weekends so I can work. He thinks I don't work in the week because I know I have the weekends to do it.
I have tried to explain how tired I get, I have tried to explain that looking after the children isn't exactly doing nothing and sometimes he is very sympathetic and other times, like this morning, he gets up in an absolute strop, goes on about giving up his weekends and me making promises i can't keep (i.e. working in the week).
Sometimes he says I shouldn't work too hard doing my freelance work because of my pregnancy, and other times its all about how we need to pay the mortgage and I am not supporting him. Its never quite right, all based on his absolute hatred of going to work in an office, which I am sure he sees as my fault. He doesn't want me to get stressed because he wants me to have a healthy pregnancy and then every week at the very least has a go at me about the working. It would all be fine if I did my work in the mornings and evenings and at the weekends but not for too long so he doesn't have to "give up" too much time (ie look after the kids).
Tell me if AIBU, even a bit please. Thanks.