Since you've brought it up Caster, it's best not to quote scripture at me, my grandfather and three of my uncles are ministers. As a child, I read it cover to cover several times, went to church 3 times a week, and as a teen was in the church nursery and running Sunday school lessons. I've studied it for comfort and I've studied it academically in multiple languages. I spent nights crying and praying over it from the age of 12, want and time I have not lacked nor effort and knocking, I was desperate for it to work just like it did for my family. Desire doesn't make anything true though. To quote a minister - fire burns, whether we believe it or not. Quoting the Bible doesn't make anything truth anymore than quoting the Iliad or any book related to any other God - all of the hundreds have texts, some just pick one as real and the other as stories. Circular logic doesn't work.
Much like Sweeney, reading it cover to cover was it's downfall for me. As was studying the history of the church - where the European tradition took over and forcefully replaced the original African one where Christianity first took hold (which didn't have any divinity element to Moshiah, and neither do any of the Jewish prophesies - as is covered in the Hollow Inheritance ), where it purposefully chose translations that don't make any sense in Hebrew and aren't used in other places in scripture for the same word to create prophesies never there, and the complete ignoring by the Christian church that the Jewish texts were never meant to be taken stand-alone, Jewish written text only makes sense with the oral tradition (hence why the manner of slaughter and circumcision only say in the text "as you have been taught" where the taught in never in the text).
I studied it for years, but really in the end, no amount of study or prayer or church made up for the bitter taste of thinking about a deity who would create people knowing most (Christians having never been a global majority) would go through eternity in hellfire - even if there was one, why would I want to worship that? I even tried Judaism with it's more universal message and lack of hellfire - seemed a natural jump at the time - spent years following Judaism as a Noachide, until I read the Mishnah Torah Melachim uMilchamot which showed things were not as equal or sweet as the many who are pushing the Noachide philosophy would have people believe (no hellfire, just not equal on Earth) - it broke me for a few weeks after I read it, I felt so cheated and deceived again, but that's what happens when you don't read all the texts, and why so many are pushed not to, makes very good control if you don't know what's in it or it's history.
The more I studied and seeked answers, the farther I've gotten from revelation faiths, the less I even wanted to worship deities like that - that would treat their creation in that manner, even when I really wanted and sought those answers and those comforts and felt cheated as if the answers had been ripped from me, on the bigger stage, it's just another created system that's - regardless of what is in Abrahamic texts - has been used to support a system of power and status that is extortionate and harmful to most people around the world. And I don't think any deity would want a system like that.