I am getting it out soon and I hope that my mood will improve. It has honestly turned me into a psycho. I don't know why I have left it so long - I guess I was just wondering if things would settle down - but it's been six months now and I am a tearful, vile tempered horror who has horrific mood swings - I promise, I was not like that before in case anyone is wondering that.
I am surprised my DH has not divorced me. I burst into tears at the slightest provocation and go from being in a perfectly ok mood to absolutely furious and raging over something really small. I am frightening myself. I don't think my DH is convinced it's the implant, I think he thinks I have PND but I was absolutely fine when I got the thing put in and noticed immediately a difference, I was suddenly snapping at our children and crying all the time. It seems to be getting worse, too. Yesterday I was sitting with my DH and two DCs and feeling so low, I lay down on the sofa and covered myself with a blanket and refused to move. Actually refused, just lay crying under the blanket. What a freak. I am ashamed of myself and feel so useless and like the shittest mother and wife in the world. I need to hear other people's stories of returning to normal after getting the implant out, if they have any?
Thanks for reading.