to hate the way I look?

[Bogeyface]

I am heavier now than the day after I gave birth to DD, a size 18 and disgusting.

I am 40 in 6 weeks, supposed to be having a party but I dont want anyone to see me like this. I tried on my favourite dress that I assumed would still fit and I cant do it up. I am working and on my feet all day but I am not losing any weight despite doing it for the last 6 weeks or so, I had thought that the extra exercise would do it. I cant get to any diet meetings but I need the support as I dont have the self discipline to do it alone.

WIBU to cancel my party, I know people will take photos and I really dont want myself to be captured looking like this. 6 weeks is not long enough to shift nearly 3 stone is it :( I didnt realise I had got so big, de Nile ain't just a river in Egypt......

Forgive me this pity party, I am not normally a whinger but this has really upset me.

I actually disagree with the idea that you should now try extremely hard to lose a lot of weight for the party. You clearly do want to lose weight, but I think it would be less emotionally complicated, and more beneficial in the long term, to take this opportunity to start making sustainable, achievable, sensible changes to your overall diet. By doing this, I'm sure you'd lose some weight before the party anyway, but without the pressure of seeing that party as an end goal, where you will judge yourself, and imagine others judging you. Your friends all already know what you look like, by the way, and love you - they're not going to suddenly realise how you look on your birthday.

Absolutely do whatever will help you look and feel great on the day - get a great haircut, spend a bit extra on things you can keep and wear no matter what size you are - shoes, accessories - but don't worry too much about what you actually weigh on the day xx

Thought I would give you a quick update.

Weighed myself this morning and have gone from 93.1 kg to 82.2!

No idea where it has gone as I dont feel any slimmer, but what can't speak cant lie, thats almost 2 stone! Now just got to work out where exactly the weight has shifted from, perhaps I now have really thin bones :o

Join WW/SW follow it to the letter & u can lose over a stone by then!

Im doing Slimming World, its a great diet, and i can eat loads, and im doing the 30 day Shred, so i've overhauled everything to slim down, and slim down i bloody well will.