to not want to support him for 4 years

[Ballyk]

namechanged
been with dh 11 years 4 ds 10,9,4 and 2.
2 years ago dh decided he wanted to quit work and go to uni full time (he is the main earner) he was offered a place on the condition that he passed the exam, he failed the exam and was told what he needed to do to ensure he would be accepted next time he applied. Anyway 2 years later and he has done nothing but thinks he will be accepted this year
I have had various part-time jobs and done several college courses since having my dc, since having my youngest dc I have been a sahm but kept my hand in doing voluntary work and extra courses. For me to progress further and do the job I really want to do I need a degree. I have mentioned this to my dh and he says I am selfish and its his turn to study and my turn to work full-time and that I would not be able to cope with a full-time degree as I am unorganized and all over the place
We have had lots of ups and downs the past few years and at one point split for a while, I was left skint with a mortgage, debts and the children to support while he buggered off partying with his mates and other women.
Obviously we have since got back together, I never want to find myself in that position again and want to be able to support myself and dc.
AIBU to think fuck him, if he really wanted to go to university that much he would have done everything to achieve this, also he doesn't know what job he wants after doing a degree. AIBU to apply for the degree I want to do (only a week to go for applying) and put myself and dc first.

[Cabrinha]

As I said before - get your application in, whatever - and don't remind him. Tbh, I'd considering securing a place, then deferring - and then spending the next year working and saving as much as you can. Plan to go it alone - this does not sound like a secure relationship. Although you shouldn't move the kids far from their father, I'd even be looking at course location with a view to which city has cheaper rent, to help when if you're on your own.

[Cabrinha]

I'm another that wants to know what the course is though! Nursing or social work?

[Ballyk]

Yes it is one of them courses,
The city that I live in has really cheap rent so that won't be a problem and if he ever did leave me would more than cope on my own. I'm surprised really at the amount of people who think we would be better of separated

[lottiegarbanzo]

It's because you sound as though you have little respect for each other and don't support each other. Also his history. You are sensibly thinking about how you would support your family if he were to leave again. That begs the question, if that is likely, wouldn't you be better off managing the separation yourself, rather than having to deal with a more stressful separation at an unpredictable time.

That doesn't mean you should separate of course, if you think you can make the relationship work. All this lack of support, conflicting aspirations and sulking just doesn't make it sound obvious that you can, or that it's necessarily worth it if you do. Of course there's much more to it. We can only go on the little you've told us.

Anyway, focus on your application and good luck!

[mollymole]

Have YOU applied yet ?

[Ballyk]

Yes I applied

[JambalayaCodfishPie]

Whoop whoop Ballyk! so did I

Did he?

[WhereYouLeftIt]

Fab! Fingers crossed for you both Ballyk and JambalayaCodfishPie!

[ThereGoesTheYear]

I just read your other thread. He sounds horrible. Fuck him.
Good luck with your course.

[SomethingProfound]

Bally, good luck in your application. I truly hope you get in.

I think it's incredibly important that you pursue this degree. From reading your posts it does not sound as if your relationship is in great shape at the moment, pursuing this will give you good earning potential and the ability to be independent, should anything go wrong.

Also and perhaps most importantly it sounds like you have worked really hard to get this far you owe it to yourself to go all the way!

As for your DH it sounds as if he is looking at university life through rosé tinted glasses.

Becoming a full time student especially when you have a family to consider is a huge commitment to undertake both in financial terms, time and the amount of effort it takes to complete a degree. To do so with out a long term plan and a really strong interest in a specific subject area is irresponsible.

Good luck in your studies.

[Ballyk]

Thank you all for wishing me luck
Good luck to you jambalayacodfishpie I've got my fingers crossed for you
No he didn't a

[Ballyk]

Thank you all for wishing me luck
Good luck to you jambalayacodfishpie I've got my fingers crossed for you
No he didn't apply and I havn't told him that I have

[Ballyk]

Whoops don't know what happened there