ok may be a bit waffly.
I quit for about 3 years did pretty well, I was a smoker when my DP started going out with me and I quit when I fell pregnant by accident and was told if I ever started smoking again it was over.
As much as smoking is bad I feel like I was a doormat to give in to the demand but I was v. young (under 20 with my first). and felt reliant.
5 years later I have just had my 2nd.
I had a traumatic birth, dp went home during labour to catch up on some sleep so I was on my own the nurse button got wedged behind the bed and I was left screaming ,
in the dark, by the time anyone found me I had given birth.
My first question was 'have I haemorraghed'?.
I have to look down to see what gender the baby was (was a surprise) I wanted the 'its a boy/girl' moment I feel so angry and traumatised that I didn't get that.
because my dp said he couldn't have anytime off work when I cam home so I came home to a 3 year old and a newborn had no time to recover i'm exhausted, one day I snapped and had a fag.
Understandably he's not happy which I get but Im constantly getting the
'if you start smoking again I'm not sticking around'which I feel is manipulative and mean considering the circumstances plus Its not like its in the house etc.
AIBU?
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or is he? smoking related.(sorry long)
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shotofexpresso · 30/12/2012 21:12
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