to not actually enjoy days out with my children very much?

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I work pt but am effectively SAHM.
During the holidays I have not taken my 2 preschool DC 1 and 4 to much of anything, but instead let them hang around the house.

Because frankly it is incredibly hard work going OUT for the day. Picnic bag, change bag, couple of toys.

When we do go there is always some drama and I am the woman in the corner with the buggy that tips over, or the child wailing because you gave them the treat (the crappy coin operated ride on) but they don't want to leave it.

I feel like my expectations of them enjoying it are much higher than what they will actually enjoy.
Went for a day out today and it was okay but my god I am creamcrackered and I asked DC1 what the best bit was (was q a big adventure to a big park, exciting things, merchandise ) and the reply? The train.

AIBU to not enjoy them and thus not do them?

Doesn't 'being at home' mean 'Thank you Cbeebies' though? Or am I the only one?

Mind you, I think plenty of CBeebies contributed to DS' educational development anyway; all that singing, counting, spelling, repetition even if delivered by screeching dysfunctional kidults seems to have done him the world of good.

Anyway, DS, Chopwimp (CHild's Other Parent Who Isn't My Partner) and I are off to Eurodisney for four days tomorrow. That will be fun.

Really, blackholes? Dreadful to say that I find my children unpleasant to be around sometimes?

You are odd.