i was christened and later on took bible studies and was confirmed, i was really too young to make my own mind up, and remember very little of it. my parents are not religious, but wanted me to be confirmed to "keep up with the joneses" fast forward to now, and i long for a rock solid belief in god, but i cant quite seem to allow myself to.
i cant bring myself to buy into the bible, its so contradictory, and a lot of the views i cannot agree with.
i mean, can science and a belief in god be compatible?
god created the world in 7 days, created man ect... but we know for a fact the dinosaurs roamed the earth way before man came along. so if that bit is wrong, is the rest of it right?
the thing is, although i have always wanted to believe i have never been able to, and have i suppose considered myself to be an atheist, who envies those with beliefs.
last week a friend of mine was given traumatic news, and was told to expect a real worst case outcome, they needed to wait for results, and during that wait, i prayed, i really prayed (thank god, the outcome was better than they had thought, though not, im sure, down to my or anyone elses prayer)
it suprised me that i prayed, i didnt think about it, i just did it, so that must mean deep down i do have a belief in god, but not the bible/religion/jesus stories. can you have one without the other?
if you believe, how do you balance out science with religion? what makes you able to believe?